It's something I keep wondering about - I don't know..I just keep on wondering. I mean, I wonder how does it feel, like being alive, shouting, screaming, laughing loud, enjoying and as a whole reacting, less like a robot and more like a human.
But no..I feel like, I live in a different planet. Everything is just so settled. I know every one us worked so hard to get in this position, get this status and be here. The place everyone adore to be in and the place we are now.
Well.. "Hi!!" Let me introduce you to myself, I am Olivia, Olivia Rajaya Laxmi Rana. I am 19, living in New York, doing my graduation in Architecture. If I gotta share you about my family then, I belong to a joint family, so called well known and rich family from Nepal.
I live alone, in a big apartment, which has 3 bedrooms (very much unneeded), 3 washrooms, a huge living hall, a very well equipped kitchen and a over whelming balcony. I don't even get this, why I am living in this apartment, I was gifted this on my 18th birthday, immediately after I came in NY. It was so cherishing in the very beginning, living in such a big building, having my own apartment that's so big and every thing else. Because no one else, none of my Nepali friends or even any other foreign friends had most of the thing I had, everyone love hanging with me, everyone wants to come and do party at my apartment, more or less they make me feel like a celebrity. But that's not something I wanted, I really don't.
When I was in Nepal, doing all of my schooling. Everyone used to adore me.. Treat me way too differently, different in a sense, treating me very nicely,really-really Nicely... Like a royal and make me feel I am different than them. But I never liked it.. I wanted to be one of them, hanging out, laughing, making fun of each other and be a very normal teen like everyone else.. But I never got chance to do that. It's unlike I didn't go to any late night parties, never went for long tours and trips, or anything else but the thing is I never got chance to enjoy it for real, because all those things were granted, ever since I was born. I mean, I wanna hangout for real, talk,walk,run,shout, and do lots of things like a normal human. But its ain't happening, even here in NY, and people just don't get it. They think why am I being so terrible, I have everything that a normal teen wants but still I act weird. But they don't get it how does it feel to be here, they don't know how I feel.
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Lacking Inside
Teen FictionIt's a story of a girl, who seems to be filled up with everything but still so empty inside. She doesn't know what she wants, but she knows she is lacking something all in.
