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True Self Challenge/tag (long) life story

Before I got into anime a few years ago my main fandom's were/are Smallville, Merlin, Warehouse 13, and a variety of Cop/murder dramas. XD

I looovveee movies and I'm a sucker for superhero, fantasy, and romance comedies (or just romance in general)

When it comes down to it I'm a total sap. Even though I do have my boyish sides.

Books! Books are awesome! My favorite Author is T.A Barron. He's the writer of my favorite book series "The Lost Years Of Merlin" and quite a few other amazing books. Besides these books, I love:
The Inheritance Cycle series
The Hunger Games series
Merlin's Dragon series
The Kingdom By The Sea
The Glass Castle
And many others. ^^

And DUDES I REALLY NEED TO READ THE LORD OF THE RINGS BOOKS!!!

I used to have a fear of spiders but one day it literally just disappeared and I'm not afraid of them anymore. X'D I'm now deemed the "official bug crusher" of my family that everyone in my house calls to squish the bugs they won't go near. :'D
But it used to be so bad that I couldn't even walk past one sitting in a web without having my heart jump out of my chest. LOL

My past has been rough to say the least, and it's made things very hard for me even to this day. I've essentially been shut out from the world my whole life to protect my family...and as a result even though I do love talking with people in real life, it's made me somewhat socially impaired...because I'm just not used to talking with people face to face. So it almost feels strange interacting with people even though I really want to. I'm always worried when I talk to someone that I'll slip up and they'll know about my past and my parents will be judged for what happened to me...so I'm sadly always on guard and I have a hard time breaking that wall down. So most of the time I'm alone.

Now, this story that I'm about to share is something I've only ever told one person in my entire life. And it wasn't even face to face, it was an online friend.
(Who I still hold very dear to my heart even though we sadly haven't spoken to each other in a few months. *cries inside* ;n; )

This isn't a happy story I regret to say, but after holding this in for so many years I think I'm ready to accept what happened and move on by sharing this because it's something I've always wanted and secretly needed to do to be able to move forward because I'm tired of holding it in.

You certainly don't have to read this next part if you don't want to, it's basically my life story and me expounding on what I was saying before about a "rough past"
So if you don't want to read it that's cool by me. ^^

And to those of you who are going to read this till the end, I really appreciate it more than i can say or put into words~ Because i know this is quite the long read! (I apologize for that) *hugs you*

Please understand that I'm not writing this because I want people to pity me, just. I've hidden this for so long I feel like it almost defines me as a person, like it's all I focus on sometimes. And I don't like that. I want to be able to move forward and learn to see myself as more than a trapped girl. Someone who can make a real future for herself and make a difference in the world.

Okay so,

I suppose the beginning would be.
My family and I move around a lot.

Like a LOT.

Because we have never been able to afford a house to buy. It's been like this ever since I was born. We moved almost once a year so when I was little I changed schools every year too, until I was about 8/9 (aka up until grade 3) but this time when I was at this age we couldn't find a place to stay that was in our price range so we ended up moving to a completely different city. Now in this city we couldn't find a house that was near any schools and it took a lot of money to move all the way to another city (we didn't have much we were a fairly poor family) so at first I couldn't start school at all, not even homeschooling because we couldn't afford to buy the curriculum and the books for it.