As the sun rained down onto the floor, I sat in silence. Waiting. He had his arms around my neck. His show breath in my ear. He was waiting. I held his hand tightly, afraid it would be the last time. The last time we saw sun, life, health, and flowers.
I kissed his cheek. The taste of his tears hung in my mouth. I didn't want him to cry. I didn't want to cry. I didn't want any of this to be happening. I wanted us to be okay. I wanted everything to be okay. But I knew it wouldn't be. Today was the last day of a normal life, and I spent it with him.
The air was hot and dry outside. Where the usual sound of lawnmowers, children laughing, and and parents yelling was replaced by silence. Everyone was afraid of tonight. Tonight was either going to be perfect or was going to destroy us. I turned around and kisses his cheek. I wanted everything to be okay. I need to spend my forever with him, not running from them. Not hiding afraid. Not being alone.
He looked at me, his eyes watery. I wiped under his eyes and kissed away the tears.
"Jesse..." I hugged him tightly. "Please don't." My breathing became shaky. The world became blurry. I wasn't okay.
"It is gonna be okay Paige." His thick southern accent fluttered in my ears. "Nothin' is gonna happen to you. Not as long as I'm here."
I looked up into his big green eyes. Dusty red-blonde hair framing his face. His big toothy smile beaming down on me.
I loved him.
And I was going to lose him.
Tonight.
