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Diffrences

     Ryan's P.O.V
Ever since the " incident " happened, everything was just different. It's been seven years now. I am 17. I never heard back to see if Jamie was okay, but ever since she left I felt different. I don't know how to explain it. It's like being one of the Pretty Little Liars, finding out that Alison is dead in season one. I never went outside, I never played, I never made friends, I never came out of my room. I never met anyone. I am exactly the definition of antisocial. Ever since Jamie left, I was fell into a deep depression. I became an addict, my mom doesn't know. She doesn't care. I don't know what to do. She was my half. She was my whole. I never dream I only feel pain. I like to hang around the wrong crowd. I spend all of my money buying drugs. That's the only thing that seems to calm me down in the slightest. The only thing that can bring me into happiness is watching anime. The artwork is beautiful. When the episode ends, I realize that I am still here and slowly dying. I don't care about my future. I only care about her. I only cared about her. Now I care about nothing.