{English Version} Can't Forget [O.S.]

First Night

I posted it in Frensh, thought I should as well post it in English, so here we go !

I hated to join the crew, and yet, when Lisa asked me if I wanted to come with her to Adam's party I said yes. I said yes because that night, I wanted to get drunk. I wanted to get drunk because it has been two years since the accident. And I didn't want to remember the accident.

Around 7 A.M., I went to Lisa's because she decided that tonight, I wasn't going to go to the party with my usual jeans and tee-shirt outfit. She decided that tonight for the first time in two years, I, Elea Jimmy, was going to wear a dress. I wasn't really found of that idea but, as usual, Lisa talked me into doing it. As we were of the same built, she handed me one of her dresses. It was a white dress, that I found too short but Lisa told me it was "the perfect height for you". So I wore the dress, and the shoes she chose for me, while Clara - her mother - was doing her make-up. Once she was done with her daughter, Clara looked at me.

"No, Clara, please. I wear a dress, that's enough." I tried.

And failed. Twenty minutes later, we were in front of Adam's house, and I had make-up. I should have known Clara wouldn't let me leave her house without make-up. She's a make-up girl after all, like my mother used to be, which is why I don't wear make-up anymore. It reminds me too much of her. But tonight, I will forget myself in alcohol. I will drink until I forget my mother, Lisa, and Adam too, if I can go that far without passing away.

When Lisa first looked at me with my make-up and dress, she lost her breath.

"Wow. You look like an angel." She whispers.

"Do you figure...? I could not be Elea for tonight? I could be someone else. An angel. I could be Hannah for tonight." I said slowly "I don't want them to know that Elea can be like that. I'm gonna get wasted tonight, just so you know."

"Yeah, like last year. It wasn't exactly pretty."

"Exactly. It's been 730 days. Tonight isn't going to be pretty either. Will you cover me?"

"I will always cover you, Hannah. No matter what."

I hugged her. It was so nice to have her beside me all the time.

Lisa introduced me to the others as "Hannah", and no one seemed to notice how much "Hannah" looked like Elea. The only time someone talked about Elea, it was Sammy, and he surprised me with what he said to Lisa.

"Elea should really come, you know. I know this must be hard for her, especially on this day, but she should come. Even if it's only to get wasted."

You got it right, Sammy. That was exactly why I was here. As a matter of fact, not long after we arrived, Lisa and I got separated, mostly because I wanted to stay at the bar and pretend to dance while I could drink and drink. Somewhere between my little walk I managed to run into Adam Riven, the boy in charge. For someone in charge, he seemed a bit off.

"Hey, do I know you?" he asked when he saw my face.

Damned him! I should have known him more than anyone was going to be trouble. He knew Elea too well. I kept acting anyhow.

"Hey. No, I don't think so. It's the first time I have come to a party with Lisa. Plus, I would have remembered a handsome boy like you."

Wow, Elea, stop the flirting now!

"I'm not handsome. I'm drunk. And you, you look so much like my... Like a girl I know. But with what you told me, it might just be the alcohol that makes me think you're her. And also because I want her to come to one of my parties. Anyway, you're pretty, so would you like to dance with me?"

"It would be my pleasure, Adam"

I realized too late that I wasn't supposed to know his name. I was too drunk for this shit.

"How do you know my name? I don't even know yours."

"Lisa told me about you. It's your party after all." I hoped he couldn't see that I was lying, because I'm not usually good at lying. He must have been too drunk to tell. "I'm Hannah, by the way"

"So nice to meet you, Hannah. You totally look like an angel, you know. I'm outside with my friend, if you wanna y'know, spend some time with me... us, I mean."

"Yeah, no problem Adam. Thanks."

He left and I stand still for a while. What did he mean by "You totally look like an angel" after I had told my name? I had chosen Hannah because in a TV Show, that's how one of the angels is named. How could he have figured? Or maybe it was just a coincidence. I was over thinking it way too much. I decided to let go of it and keep drinking and dancing.

Adam came back half an hour later, for the dance he had promised me. We didn't talk and for a long time I stopped thinking "maybe..." But it all happened the way I feared - hoped? - it would happen. A few songs later, we were kissing, and before I could realize, we were in his room, and it started being... more.

I got a grip on myself and pulled away. He tried to kiss me again, but I turned my head.

"Whassup, Hannah? Am I a bad kisser?"

"No, that's not that. It's just... Err... I have to go. Sorry but, err... Bye"

I left without another world and went to find Lisa. She was outside with Sammy. No sooner had she seen my face than she knew something was wrong. She called Clara when I asked her to and fifty minutes later we were back at Lisa's. I crashed on my bed and fell asleep almost immediately, too exhausted and drunk to undress.

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