I told them I do not write poetry.
I will make this poem clear:Edges of lips scented with honey, tongue fidgeting,
I scrape around for inspiration. Beware! –
the verses scream. Edit each emotion, submit it alive. Beware! –
each verse scares, invading room and mind.
Edit each frail emotion, submit it heated teeth chant furiously,
timidly.I hold back tongue, afraid it will lick the dishonest,
sweet honey pasted under and around lips. I surrender to
the lies and lick, lick, lick. Oh, they're sweet! So heavenly sweet
tongue flights! It's sprinting downwards!
Downwards lies a stomach knitted with forgotten,
sincere verses. It massages its grey sweetness along
the surface, seeking entrance. I yelp.
Protecting the truth is painful.They battle, stomach and tongue.
I can't talk. Drink and food too are yawning widely,
crying for attention. I can't eat. When they ask of me, I write
I am separating fiction from non-fiction. But the truth is
painful. Fuck, it's painful.This isn't clear enough. The water too is losing
its colour. The water isn't clear enough. I
don't mind.Time is growing tired of my growing battles.
A rush to vomit overwhelms. I realise this is a poor
analogy of a reality I've disobeyed. I can't
release the lies, they're embedded in me. The battle has ended,
the lies stare crystal clear. So clear
they're deceiving me too.I want to surrender. Surrender like stomach,
Like Mother. Like Father. Like Sister, like
Brother. Like all: surrender. Surrender. I will(want to)
paint the towns of my skin red - the colour of defeat.
The colour of spilled blood. Also the colour of love –
Don't you wonder why?Mind raised rather than arms, I practice surrender.
I've fast-forwarded the play and studied surrender.
Allow me to surrender; I've learnt my lessons.
Forgive this poem; I can see it's not clear enoughlike I have said.