Friends

Friends I

'Hi Bebe Girl, let's have dinner, my call, here sa house on Sunday.. With sina Martin.. Izzy's excited to meet her prettiest ninang.. Ehemmm! Lol Miss you! Ayoko ma ditch Miks! See you! Mwaaah!'

I was reading it for I don't know how many times already.

'With sina Martin...'

It was keeping on flashing my head. Sina Martin. Sina... Who? 

Will it be him? Or nah, maybe Ate Jojie's family? Or nah...

'Huy, kanina ka pa tulala dyan sa phone mo. Tara na. Kain muna tayo bago umuwi ng dorm.' Kimmy said and started walking to the elevator. We just finished our training, and kakapagod, sobra. Almost two months left till the season starts, and the training's getting intense.

Bring back the crown to Taft!

'Immy, samahan mo ako bukas.' I said to Kim as we're settled in a table in Jollibee, starting our dinner.

'Saan naman? Uwi akong Batangas Ye eh.' She said and drinks from her pineapple juice.

'Kina Ate Jojie sana. Dinner Immy.' I said, as I handed her my phone, let her read the message.

'Ikaw lang naman inivited eh, tsaka andun naman sina Martin.' She said. But takes a second look.

'Sinong sina Ye?' She asked with that knowing look. And nodded her head.

'Should I go?' I asked her, looking at her eyes.

'Ikaw, ready ka na ba makita siya?' She asked. I don't know.

He's been texting me and the people around again. I don't know what he wants or I don't know. It's just that, he's been trying to reach out again but the things he's been doing on social medias or anywhere are just so opposite.

Mama even said he's been bugging her asking how I am doing and that I should take care always.

I don't know with him.

I don't know.

For six months I've been trying, I've been trying to stand on my own. I have to. Na hindi lang naman sa kanya umiikot ang mundo ko. I have my own life.

But there are just days that I just can't take anymore. Masaya ako. Masaya. But with just one click, nawala. Biglang malulungkot.

There are times that I really wanted to go to him, ask him why? Why? Pero di ko magawa. Di ko kaya.

These past days I have restrained myself from opening my social media accounts. Paulit ulit na lang. Masasaktan ka ulit sa mga nababasa mo, then in a moment you'll receive a message from him saying it's just nothing.

It's just nothing.

Anong ibig sabihin non?

Ayoko namang umasa.

Mahal ko pa rin, pero kasi, masakit na.

'Huy Ye, punta ka na lang. Kung andoon man, edi greet him.' Kimmy said. Should I?

Maybe it's the right time.

Maybe.

As I lay down my bed that night I replied Ate Jojie's text.

'I miss you too Ate! Yes, I'll be there Ate..'

And sleeps the feels.

Come what may.