The fan that stood out. (A Jensen Ackles X reader)

Comfort and Regret

Your POV

I started to feel the weight on my shoulders get heavier and heavier the more I looked at Jensen's quivering body. I felt horrible for what I had just told Jensen to do.

The smile that was once on my face from speaking with Jared quickly fades away.

I feel like crying and slowly tearing my very being apart.

There was a repulsive black pit in my soul at that moment and my body wanted me to stand up and embrace him.

I wanted to hug him so badly and never let him go. But I knew that if I did that, he might think that I set this all up. He might think that I did this just so that I could make a move. So I did the next best thing... I apologized.

"I-"

I start off, my voice cracking a little whilst trying not to break into tears.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry."

My voice slowly trails off into something almost like a whisper but they could still clearly hear me.

Not able to hold in my tears, I let a few escape.

I stand up, head facing the ground. With now tears streaming from my eyes.

I start to walk away from the the table when...

Jensen's POV

What does she "mean she's sorry"?

I started thinking to myself. None of this is her fault. Then or dawns on me.

Still hurt and stunned from what I had just witnessed, I went to say something but nothing came out. As I was too out of it to speak.

Just as I gather barely enough courage to ask her something I see her stand up slowly, But not normally.

She stands in with her head down, so that we can't see her face. Tears are quickly racing down her cheeks. I don't want her to go. I still have so many questions to ask! But I also can't let her leave like this.

She... She showed me this. I would have never figured it out if she hadn't shown me it.

But most importantly, for the first few seconds she saw us, before she remembered my situation, You could see the sparkle in her eyes, and the eagerness to see us.

To be willing to watch from a window without sound, I can tell that we must be her favorite actors or something.

Whatever it is I can't let her go. This must have been so hard for her to do. And yet she still pulled through. And for that, I must thank her.

Without a moments hesitation I swiftly turned around and walked up to her, turning her around swiftly and pulling her close into a tight hug.

To be honest, I needed one, and badly. It sure did look like she did too.

If I was being entirely honest with myself right now, there was something about her. Something SK strong that I didn't want to leave her side, I just couldn't.

Your POV

Shocked, I played limp. Not knowing what to do.

Jensen had pulled me into a tight embrace and I didn't know why! So many questions flowing through my head! Billion and billions, to many to count!

When all of a sudden, they were all answered with two words out of Jensen's mouth.

"Thank you."

I heard him whimper out. I could tell it was hard for him to have seen that, hell, I knew that from the start.

But at the very least, I know that Jensen is strong hearted and will be able to pull through this with time. Some time off work, and some time to figure every thing out.