Angel's Wish

Prologue

Dear Diary,

Can no one see this smile I'm faking,

See how, inside, I'm constantly shaking?

These people all claim they know me well,

Yet no one can see through my crumbling shell?

"I'm fine", I whisper, my sadness unknown,

They leave me to deal with this anguish alone.

I've hidden behind this wall most of my life,

I've managed so far, I've dealt with my strife.

Watching as, slowly, my blood leaks away,

It helps to keep life's true horrors at bay.

I pull down my sleeve to cover my hurt,

For approaching footsteps, I'm on the alert.

I guess my pretense is just all too real,

No one has to know of the pain that I feel.

The real me inside, where no one can see,

I can fool everyone else, why can't I fool me?

-YCE JO MENDIOLA

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Bakit sa dinami-dami ng tao sa mundo, bakit ako pa?

My Mom and Dad died last December 25.

I still remember what was my mom told me that day,

"Yce, It's hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last...some don't even start..."-mom.

That was my worst Christmas Day ever. And I'm not aiming for a merry Christmas this year.

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Dear Diary,

Six months na simula nung nangyari yun. I wanted to start my life, to move on and be happy again. But it seems fate wont let me. Dr. Nathan called a while ago and I think theres a problem again.

I want to give up now. Theres no way to hold on.

I wish theres someone who could lift me up. Cause I can sense that any minute from now I'll fell on the ground.

-YCE JO MENDIOLA

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