When All Else Fails (Mavin)

Chapter Twelve: First (Happy) Ending

"Fine, wedding's off. So what?" Lindsay breathed out.

"Oh, that's not it. Wedding, engagement, relationship, that's all over. I'm not gonna date someone who thinks I'm a liar and a cheater," I told her.

I watched her expression change from anger to shock. She shook her head and dropped her suitcase.

"Michael, wait, you're not ser-," Lindsay started.

"I'm serious. Besides, I always had a feeling this wasn't gonna work out. We had too much in common. It would've gotten boring anyway," I told her.

For the next half hour, Lindsay tried to convince me to rethink my decision. Everything she said I denied with my own point of view.

I opened up to her about how I'd been feeling for the past few weeks. How she'd changed and how much I disliked it. She defended herself, saying she was who she was.

I then opened up to her about how Gavin told me he loved me.

And how I loved him back.

...

I knocked on the door to Geoff's house. Gavin had to know. It's been fifteen minutes and I already felt like I needed Gavin. The person that I truly loved.

Geoff opened the door and yawned, asking why I was there so late.

"Where's Gavin?" I asked him.

"Upstairs, like usual. Where else would he be?" Geoff told me. I pushed past him and ran up the stairs.

I burst through the door and I was shocked to see what I found.

Or what I didn't find.

Gavin was nowhere to be found. I looked in his closet and looked down the hall to the bathroom.

He was gone.

I noticed the window was opened and I swore under my breath. I looked out it and I looked around outside.

He was just gone, period.

My heartbeat quickened and I sat on his bed, feeling my breathing pick up.

Something crinkled and I looked down.

A letter.

My heart dropped and I slowly picked up the letter. It felt like it was a million pounds and I slowly unfolded it.

Tears came to my eyes when I recognized Gavin's messy, unique handwriting.

Dear pleb who found this,

So... I assume everyone knows I'm suicidal. You think you can walk in and save me at any moment but you can't. I was destined to die young. I know I was. My life just wasn't what I wanted it to be. Everyday, I lived a lie. Everyday, I got worse and it wouldn't be fair to you guys to have to deal with it.

So, now I leave you with this note. You can do what you want with it. Please don't make a huge fuss about my death, either. I'd rather the fans not know about it also. Just tell them I left Achievement Hunter to do something else.
Anyway, for each of the individual men that had the greatest impact on my life, I leave my final words for you in this letter.

Jack,
How are you so nice all the time? I don't understand how you do it. Also, after I'm gone, please don't change that. Just because I'm gone doesn't mean anything's changing, so please, don't change either.

Ryan,
Have you killed anyone? I've always wondered that. If you have, I'm quite interested on how you managed to keep the slight bit of sanity you have left. Also, please don't lose that last bit of sanity because I'm gone. It's not worth it, trust me.