BROKEN HOME

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"Jesssss"

"What michael"

"Mum called, we're home alone until tomorrow. I'll ask the boys if they want to come. Can you call your friends?" He said that and he almost cried from laughing. He thinks i have no friends and he thinks thats funny... While he is actually not..

"As long as you bring no fans with you it's alright, i will call lucy if she wants to come for a sleep over. AND YES I HAVE FRIENDS YOU DICKHEAD" i said trying to hold my anger. I bed my head was as red as a tomato by now.

"Slut"

"Cock"

"Whore"

"Balls"

"I know right thats what my guitar says though" michael said while pointing to the over colored guitar in the back of the room.

Its mike's he plays guitar in a band called 5 seconds of summer. There are quite popular by now. I remember in their early years when there was nothing going on! He used to play video games in his room all day

Ohh these were the good days of life..

I put a smirk on my face and walk upstairs into my room. Getting my phone from the charger in the back and lay down on bed.

Me- lucyyy... Wanna come here for a sleepover tonight. We're home alone!!

Lucyy- yeahh be there in a minute I was already on my way to you..

*incoming call Lucy*

"Why do you call me?"
"Idk i just wanna ask if I can stay a multiple days because mum and dad are soooo annoying "
"I'll call mum wait I text you if I know more... See you"

"Just open the door "

"Okay wait"

"MICHAEL OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR AND SAY TO LUCY THAT I AM UPSTAIRS"

" yes princes"

*

I hate this. I fucking fucking hate this.
Life... Urggg i hate my family. I hate my "friends"
I hate all the fucking 5sos fans. I hate my job. I hate school. I hate how i look. And the thing I hate the most is called
' Michael Gordon Clifford. ' or ypu can say... My brother.

I should have known that if mike invited calum I lost lucy almost straight after he comes in. These too lovebirds are soooooo in love the always end up having sex in cals apartment and thats when i lose my shit...

I watch the rain falling down from the air. The little droplets racing down my window trying to beat each other down.

I listen to all time low. That new album is sick. When alex was here a few weeks ago he gave it to me in person. I had a fangirl attack... Kind off...

But anyway. The song called kids in the dark was coming through the speakers. And I listen to it while focusing on the rain.

They left us alone the kids in the dark to burn out forever or light up a spark we come together state of the art. We'll never surrender the kids in the dark
So let the world sing.
What a shame . What a shame
Beautiful scars on critical veins come together state of the art we'll never surrender the kids in the dark the kids in the dark.

I hum along with the lyrics. Not very loudly because my voice is terrible. It was good, once. But by the time I grew older. It only got worse.

Mikes voice in my opinion is only getting better. They Are making a new album now and I've heard a song called jet black heart. It was so beautiful.. I still don't know who wrote it. They will not tell me..

Also. People think that being a clifford is a beautiful life. But no. Either way it sucks. The inly thing i like is being a hairdresser. I've always wanted to be one and last year I graduated college.
Living a busy life on the road with worlds favorite band is kinda cool. But I still hate it.

I dont care if I cut hair in a small area or just on tour with a band. If i can do what I always wanted to do then its fine.

I hear the frontdoor slam and that means cal and lucy left!
And that also means the point of breaking. Silence takes over and the only thing i hear is the rain outside.

i think they all left because after 10 minutes it still is silent.

I walk down the stairs to see if there is some one. But no
No one

So i cal mike

"Mike where the fuck are you..."

"Idk luke told me to go to somewhere with him."

"why"

"I don't know maybe he has a surprise  you or for us. I told you didn't I"

"yes sort of"

"just don't tell anyone you know it"

"all right then just tell me where you are"

"don't worry sister it's going to be all right don't just don't worry please "

"but wait are you doing OK I will talk to you later bye oh and yeah Beote be OK and if there something you need my help with just text me or call me"

"Yeah princess it's going to be OK believe me and I will call you as soon as we go home we will see you and have a great night by yourself see you little baby."

And with that he hangs on

Is it just me or am I just the only one who doesn't believe what you're doing right now because I know Luke and he's a dick he's probably hooking up with some girl and I guess Michael S is doing some sort of drug right now.

I miss the old days warm-up or Barents we're home and we were happy family with no problems with no drops with no way to dad and I really love my mom but she's always gone for work and I miss her a lot

But that yeah the problem is I'm always alone and I hope my house burns down some day because if that happens I hope mom over realize that if she's always gone for work she can't watch us

And I know was sound like a depressing girl but yet that's kind of my life and I love it it's yeah I don't know what to call it but I love it so far maybe I'm just not the right one to be on earth right now even though I love it here I miss my dad so badly he passed away when I was 11 en mike was 13

He had cancer and yeah I really miss him...