How do you cope with that pain? You know the one where your hearts crushed and your stomach trembling and weak the feeling you just got your heart broken putting your everything in to this person and they treat you like a dicked the next day I'm hurting to the stage where it hurts to breath like is that even normal? People keep saying your strong you can do it but what if I don't want to do it what if I'm not strong what if I'm one step away from death and all you can say is "she's fine she'll get over it"
It's not everyday you see me weak but when I am you know I've had enough and close to the edge sometimes I wish I didn't have feelings I wish I was a vampire or you know a leaf a rose dealing with pain is the hardest because it always comes back on top of new pain and it never goes it just gets worst.
You know when your sick of crying you have cried so much that if another tear comes out itll make the River Thames.
If I ever go I want my family to know I love them even my annoying sister can't there be such thing as heartbreak tablets? No because nobody ever thinks about what us females go threw on the other side males can just cut there feelings off like that why do I keep suffering I'm not alive to just feel pain and it's not like I put my self in to the situation either because I try so hard to be so good and good enough and what happens I always end up on the worst foot I give up I honestly can't go any more I will not end my life because of the family I love but I hope my death date is coming very soon.
