My Thoughts

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Its funny people will say oh you don't trust anyone and you need to trust me. But that always seems to be the problem I trust to much I get attached way to easily. My heart instantly gets attached to a person who even slightly pays attention to me . I hate it so much because most of the time its what causes my tears. People also will be like I understand I get it but no you don't no one can possibly know what goes through my brain I can't even begin to comprehend all the crap that goes through my head because everyday its different I could have good thoughts one day or bad thoughts the next. I hate that everyday its something different. Either im crying about my weight or I'm crying about my looks or the boys not girls boys who decide to harass me at school. It pisses me off when people be like tell somebody. But the little thing they don't know is that no ones gonna help me. I hate being told I'm wrong or its impossible for me to feel something. I've been by told doctors that oh your just going through a phase it doesn't really hurt. I've been told by teachers that your not really mad you can work it out. I've been told by my parents you don't know what love is your naive. But the fact is I know more than any of them do about me because its me I'm me you can't tell me I don't feel something or do something because no one seems to get that I can do whatever I want. Its funny whenever I wear short sleeves or shorts and they show cuts or scars people say I'm doing it to get attention but I wear things that show them because I don't give a fuck what people say about them.