Last Broken Heart [LIAM PAYNE]

(01) I Won't Stop Caring

"I'm always going to be here, Sammy," Danny murmurs. "I'm not going to leave you."

"I don't want you to go," I whimper. "Don't."

"I may not be your boyfriend anymore but that doesn't mean that I will stop caring."

"Danny, please don't do this to me."

Danny sighs and runs his fingers through his black hair. His bright blue eyes aren't as bright as usual and have lost their shine. He doesn't love me anymore. I close my eyes and look away, my eyes burning and my heart stuttering. It just happened again; I just had my heart broken yet again. This is the third time this year, and the sixth time in two years. 

Yes, you read that right. I have had six broken hearts in the small amount of time called twenty-four months. All five of those boys had been my boyfriend and had fallen out of love with me when they met the girl of their dreams. I guess that I was just a stepping stone for them, and I wish that I hadn't let them use me like they did. All they really wanted was a slut, but I wasn't one. Danny was the only one who didn't want anything like that from me.

The sixth one was a girl.

Her name is Sarah. She was my girlfriend for longer than any of the boys had been my boyfriend for. She then admitted to me that she had fallen in love with another girl - the hot goth girl who is my best friend, Emma. I let her go, and they got together. Sarah, Emma and I are all best friends and sometimes we all go out on a date together, and I never feel like the third wheel. Sometimes it would get a little strange when Emma and Sarah would make out right in front of me, but I didn't care. I am glad that they are happy.

Emma and Sarah are still going strong to this day. Their one year anniversary is next Tuesday, actually, and I have something special planned for the two of them because I know how much they want each other. They know I have something planned, but neither of them know what. Danny helped me plan the whole thing, and it helps that his family owns an expensive motel where this whole plan of ours can take place - and yes, his parents know our plan.

Anyway, back to the drama that I am dealing with right now. Wait. Where was I? He had taken me to where we had first met, he had told me that he was breaking up with me, and...oh yeah! Now I am trying to convince him to stay with me and never leave me. I guess that part failed as soon as I thought about it.

"Are we still going to be friends?" I ask.

Danny smiles. "Of course we are, Sammy. I told you. I am not leaving you."

"Thank you. I can't lose anyone else."

"Oh, Sammy."

Danny knows how hard all my past relationships and breakups have been, and he has never treated me like any of them did. He never ever would, I know that now. He isn't breaking up with me because I wouldn't sleep with him; he is breaking up with me by using an acceptable reason. He doesn't love me any more and he doesn't want to keep dragging me along, making me believe that he still loves me. He knows that would kill me.

"'Breakups hurt,'" Danny says. "'But losing someone who doesn't respect and appreciate you is actually a gain, not a loss'. Do you know who said that, Sammy?"

I shake my head.

"Neither do I."

I laugh. "So you just quoted someone without even knowing who said the quote?"

"Basically."

"Well, I never thought you'd do that."

Danny bursts out laughing and I join in. It is good to laugh about something after you just had a downer. It's even better to laugh about something with the person you just had a downer with because it shows that you can still be friends. I say that if you can't be friends with someone you used to go out with, then they are just a part of your past and don't deserve to be a part of your future. They are just old toys and don't deserve to be played with anymore.

I will always love Danny, nothing is going to change that,because he was the first boyfriend that I actually loved. It's the same with Sarah. I am always going to love both of them. The difference between them is that I have only moved on from Sarah. Now, it is time to move on from Danny, and it is going to be as hard as moving on from Sarah, but I know that I am going to be able to survive this. 

Why? It is because I have done it before.

"Now," I say. "Emma and Sarah need to know."

Danny nods in agreement. "They will know. Just wait until tomorrow to tell them."

"Why?"

"It's really late and they may be a tiny bit busy."

I flush. "Right. May not want to burst their little bubble."

Danny laughs. "Good idea."

"I better go home," I say, checking the time on my phone. "Mum'll be worried."

"I'll drive you."

"You have to or I'll be walking."

"True."

We hop off the bonnet of his dark blue Hilux SR5 and get into the ute. He starts the engine and reverses away from the edge of the lookout, swinging the ute around and driving down the bumpy road that leads up to the lookout. I have to put my hands on the dashboard to stop myself from bouncing up and down, and accidentally hurting myself. Danny pushes himself down onto the seat and only bounces slightly.

We soon turn onto the tar road and stop bouncing. The smooth road disorients me for a second as I am used to the bumpy dirt road, and then I slowly become re-accustomed to the smooth tar road. Danny puts his foot on the gas and we soon reach the speed limit, 80 km/h. Another twenty minutes later we enter the town area of San Francisco and Danny drives to my place. He pulls up out the front and we sit there in silence for a few minutes.

Danny suddenly leans over and kisses me. I kiss him back and we stay like that for a minute. He then pulls back and brushes the hair back from my face. His eyes are full of sadness and I know that mine are too because we both know that that kiss was the last one we would ever share, and there was nothing we could do to change it. Danny and I both pull back from each other, and I undo my seat belt.

"See you at school tomorrow, Danny," I say.

"Yeah," Danny says. "I'll see you then, Sammy."