Little secret - Michael Clifford[English]

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"Victoria, I'm sorry but.. I think.. I.. I just.. I think is the best if we.. Break up.?" The last one came out as a question.
"Y-you.. You want to break up. Why? I-I thought you.. I thought we were happy. Is.. Do you.. Do you want to be single when you go around the world. If you want to date others that's okay but please.. Please don't leave me.." Tears were on my cheeks. I'm just a 17 years old silly girl, who was in love with a 17 years old boy. I've loved him for 3 years now. We've been together 3 years. And now he's dumping me.
"It's not that Vic.."
"Don't you dare call me that." I mumbled agrily.
"Then what is it?" I tried to be strong but I couldn't.
"I just think that.. That you might be holding me back." He was now looking at his own shoes as I cried and tried to collect myself.
"Goodbye Victoria. I love you." He kissed my forhead and turned around, walking out of my life.

*present time*
"MOMMYY waaakee upp! It's first day of school!" My five years old daughter screams and jumps in my bed. Indeed, today was her first day of pre-school.

I opened my eyes and smiled at her. She was so adorable watching me with those big blueish-green eyes. His fathers eyes. She looked so much like him, it's unbelievable.
"Mommyy.. You promised to make me pancakes." She whined as I got up.
"Go brush your teeth like a good girl and then I promise I'll make you banana pancakes." I yawned and streched my arms as she ran out of my room. I opened my wardrope and got black leggings and a black quite long t-shirt with Nirvanas smiley logo on it. I put them on and went to kitchen.

Soon Selena came in with a toothpaste on her chin. A little laugh came out of my mouth and so she started to giggle too. After our little laughing session, I picked her up and put her on her chair. I put the freshly made banana pancake on her plate and took an apple to myself. I went back to my room and started doing my make up. I put my eyeliner and mascara and dark wine red lipstick. I curled my blonde hair a little and let it fall down past my breasts. I put my converses on and went back to kitchen. Selena was finishin her breakfast so I took her plate and put it in the wash and went after her to her room. She was putting clothes on. What a clever girl.

"Honey, it's quite warm, but I think you should take a warm jumper with you." I said and took a pink sweater out of the wardrobe.
"What do you want to eat today?" I asked her as I was collecting everything to her backpack.
"Mac n' cheese!" She yelled as she ran in to our little entry hall starting to put her shoes on. She really is amazingly wise.
"No, we had that yesterday. What about noodels and chicken?" She nodded her little head. I know I didn't have that much money. I had barely enough to feed us and have an apartment. But we managed, somehow.

My mom kicked me out when she found out I was pregnant and no one else in our family or my relatives wanted me because my mom said I had disgraced our family. Well.. Then I moved in with one of my work buddies until I got money enough to buy a little apartment. It was only a one room. That room had kitchen, bedroom and couch. They were all in a small room. Then we had a bathroom of course but yeah.. Not much, but it still was a home.

"Mommyy.. We need to go." I was brought  back to reality by my girl hanging on my sleeve.
"Okay baby." I smiled a little. She was all I got. She was my life. My light. I don't know where I would be without her.

"Let's go." I said and opened our door, letting her out. Before I closed it again, I checked I had keys with me. I took our sunglasses and gave Selena hers and put my own to cover my eyes. Oh, did I forgot to mention? I live in Australia. Yes, the same country where 5sos lives. But no, I don't keep in touch with the boys. Any of them. I was really good friends with then back when Michael and I dated, but when I found out I was expecting Selena, I broke every contact I had with them. It's better this way. It's better for Selena to grow up without fame.

"MOM!" She yelled and I stopped when she pushed me a little.
"Be careful. You were about to get rum by a car." She stated and I looked down at her and sighned.
"I'm sorry baby. Mommy is just a little tired." I apologised and she nodded. She was more mature that I am. We crossed the road and soon we were on her school. Everyone else was saying goodbye to their kids and there was a teacher with a sign saying 'pre-schoolers'. Haha like they could read. Well Selena can read a little but not amazingly.

"Mommy is going to get you in a few hours, okay?" She nodded.
"So you have miss cuddles and a jumper in your backpack." I said. Miss cuddles is her teddy bear, I bought for her when she was born. She didn't go anywhere without it. I walked her to the teacher and shaked the teachers hand, before crouching down to kiss Selenas both cheeks, forhead, nose and then her lips.
"I love you to the moon.." I started.
"And back." She finished for me and giggled.

"Go on. You're a big girl now." I said and got up, smiling and watching her running away with the other kids. Soon she turned around and sprinted to me. I went to my knees and she jumped in my arms.
"I love you mommy." She whispered and then ran away.
"I love you too.." I whispered to her back.