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January

It was a new start for me after being out of the hospital. Overdosing on heroine wasn't a great thing, but it certainly took me places I want to go again. Kainan always hooked me up with it. I love him, but honestly he's the worst, but best thing that's ever happened to me. He's given me enough drugs to kill me multiple times because he said I needed to be happy. Just being with him makes me happy. But I've overdosed enough times that even the hospital knows it's me right when they hear that a 15 year old girl has. 

Kainan was coming to pick me up soon and take me to one of the biggest parties of the new week. Lying was so easy with my mother of where I was going. I told I would just be with Cadie, Cadie was with me, but we weren't hanging out. She'd be all over Kainan trying to get in his pants. He doesn't want to get into mine because he thinks I'm too much of a slut, but what he doesn't know is that I'm a virgin. Kainan and I met a year ago on my 14th birthday. Cadie and I went to the mall and there he was. The hot blonde with the piercing blue eyes, tattoos down his left arm, and a piercing on that beautiful smile of his. I walked up to him and told him he was hot, It was a mistake but I got his number. Kainan is 22 and the club he goes to, yeah, his cousin owns it so he allows anyone Kainan knows in. 

Kainan pulled up, and for the first time my mom noticed there wasn't another girl in there, I lied my way out though and said he was Cadie's brother, she bought it. 

When I got into the car Kainan put his hand on my thigh and he never does that. Maybe he felt bad about how I was in the hospital? Maybe this time he realized I wanted him to be my first.

"Kainan", He looked at me. "I'm a virgin."

Kainan ignored me for the rest of the ride until we got to this beautiful mansion home with an already red solo cup filled lawn. Kainan went off to find his friends and left me to be alone, Cadie isn't here.

As I sat down, a 6 foot shadow approached me. Kennedy, Kainans brother, Sat next to me and put his hands on my thighs. He was about as hot as Kainan so I let him. We talked for a bit and drank for hours and then he lead me up into the bedroom. If it wasn't with Kainan, it was with Kennedy.

As we got into the room Kennedy shut the door behind him and locked it. I was intimidated and scared when I heard the click, I didn't want to do this now. 

"Ken, I don't want to do this anymore. Please don't force this upon me."

"Don't worry, baby. You'll be happy."

Kennedy moved towards me groping me, getting a throbbing force on my leg. I was scared, is he going to rape me? Kissing down my neck and a forceful push to the wall. I screamed.

"Shut up you fucking slut, I see why Kainan doesn't want you. You're damn lucky that I'm even trying to get with you."

Kennedy ripped my shirt, the buttons unthreaded. He was biting down my body from neck to toe. My personal space is violated and I don't know how I fell for it. And then I heard it.

"Jess!"

I scream Kainans name, he followed the direction while Kennedy left a bruise on my stomach for my mistake. Kainan tried opening the door, but it was locked. Pushing and shoving I hear him while Kennedy is holding me captive by the wrists to the wall, hurting so much that they'll probably leave bruises too. And then Kainan breaks the door through and then the next thing I know is that I'm on the floor and his brother his too. All I hear is sirens and see a stream of blood coming from my stomach and Kainan is bringing me to the door into the ambulance while Kennedy is in handcuffs.

And now it's all a blur.

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I wake up hearing a woman.

"Jessica Dowled is in room 7 right now."

"Did she overdose again?"

"She has a stab wound in her stomach and she has a mild concussion. She has alcohol in her blood, but I believe the man who did it got her drunk so he could do sexual things."

The sound of heels clicking became louder each click. My vision still blurry, but the voices very clear.

"Kainan, You can go home. She will be okay. She's safe now."

"I love her, I don't want to leave her side until I know she's okay and awake."

The lady walks out of the room and Kainan rubs my head. He whispers into my ear.

"Jess, I love you... I never want you in this position again.  You hurt yourself like this, and it hurts me."

I pretend to wake up and make eye contact with Kainan. He smiles so I smile back. He kisses my forehead.

"I was worried so much about you Jessica. Don't you ever do this again. You know how bad my brother is."

I nod my head and his eyes look very worried. Blue pierced into mine, made me feel upset because I can certainly tell that he cares more than I have thought.

He looks down, but then up. He opens his mouth like he wants to say something.

"Jess... I have a secret I need to tell you..."

And of course it only gets worse.