Meghan Elizabeth Greenberg: Transgender Me

12/19/15 8:40 pm

Entry,

Hello, My birth name is Kyle Adam Greenberg and I do believe I am a transgendered woman. Ever since I was young I was different. I'm not going to say the cliche "I've always known..." because I didn't. I didn't know why I was different I just knew I was. When I was around 5 or 6 I would wear my mother's heels and a long haired party wig of hers. When I was a preteen I'd play barbies with my neighbor and cousin. I'd hate to go into the pool in just swim shorts, I had to wear a shirt when I went in. When we were young my neighborhood friends would make a play and I would always want to play the female villain. I always hated getting my hair cut and in my late teen years would prefer long hair. Looking back those are definite red flags to me but back then i had always thought of other reasons for them. I could, of course, just be thinking to hard but looking at all of them together it makes me wonder.
This will be my journal. I'm not saying I am going to transition. If I do I will talk about it, but this journal will just be my thoughts of being transgendered. I have decided that I want to dress as a female, which I feel that I am on the inside. On Monday's I am alone at my house till around 4.
Oh let me introduce myself better. I am Kyle Adam Greenberg, I am currently 24 years old. Not really sure what else to say about me. As I said I am a transgendered woman. A few years ago I asked my mother what my name would have been if I was born a girl, another red flag I forgot to mention, and she told me Meghan Elizabeth. From this point on in my journal I will refer to myself as Meghan.
For Monday I have bought a wig online. It is a long wavy brown wig. I've always wanted to be a blond but decided to pick the color of my natural hair. I originally planned just to try my mother's heels on with my own clothes and a male mullet wig I had for Halloween but I wanted to go all out. Tomorrow I will buy a pretty skater dress. I love dresses. I will also by 4 1/2 inch heels. I am short as I am only 5'4" so wearing heels will be fun.
When I was 18 I met my ex girlfriend. Her name was Cassie. We've dated for about 6 months until I broke up with her. My reasoning was I believed I was gay. I was too shy to tell my parents that until a few months ago when I had no choice. I look back however, I was wrong about thinking I was gay. I am a straight transgendered woman. Well I think that is all I have for now. I'll type back if I remember something else or I'll type back tomorrow

-Meghan xoxo