to: yeol

Only This

By the way, I've got so many words that stucked in my head and I couldn't express it to you easily so yeah here we go.

I really want to tell you this since you're now back again and I'm happy that you're back even we're not being together anymore, while actually I'm curious what's your reason behind your comeback.

I never really know exactly who you are and what do you look like, but I'm grateful and I'll never regret that I've met you.

And now I've just realized that I've burried how much I miss us. I tried to burry it deep down there to the bottom, until I forgot that I've already done it. But however, it's still there. And now I looked back and I'm digging it again.

Yeol, I know we're not as closed as we used to be and I know you don't like me as you used to be. I really wish there were some parts I could restore because all we felt now is an awkwardness that wrapping around us. If there's anything I could say to you yeol, let it this be, it's only everything about us that I miss. Well, yeah I know I shouldn't, but I miss you. I miss our old conversations.

I've decided to stop it and when I just stopped trying it so hard, I realized that I clearly wasn't getting anywhere.

And I'm really sorry that sometimes I'm still getting a little jealous, thinking that someone else could make you happier outside there than I could. I guess it's my insecurities for acting up like this, because I know that I'm not the funniest and most exciting person for you. Sorry if I'm still become this possesive when it comes to something like this.

Yeol. Yes, you. I know probably you're reading this and I just want you to know that I'm writting this for you. Maybe no one else will understand, no one else will knows, and you probably think that I'm being too over or excessive maybe?

I just want you to know that.....life is hard bruh. Everyday can be a challenge even it is just to get up earlier in the morning, to get yourself out from the bed and keep your head up while putting on a smile. But you should know yeol, that smile is what keep you go on through the days. You need to remember, even you through the tough times, you're amazing. You really are.

You should be happy. You're gorgeous.

Yeol, I know that the weather might not be perfect nowadays, you might have to turn your back to the winds or let the cold nipping at your nose. But, you know what? At least you're there to feel it. At least you can enjoy the sun's warm rays on your face or that december wind bitting at your cheek.

You know what is that mean?

You're alive. You're great.

You're not only stars but also the whole damn galaxies, yeol.

And everything will be okay.

And I hope one day, you'll give your heart to someone and that person will hold it tight as if it's her own.

I hope one day when you wake up, you'll have someone beside you to live for.

I hope one day you'll have someone that make you realized how amazing you truly are.

And last, I really don't care exactly who you are and you probably think these are too much over but I don't care and I've determined to be brave to myself for saying all of these for you because you're one of the whole things that already fulfill my life.

It is really alright if you want to leave me or gone away from me, but I just want you to know that I'm here.

I always here. If you need to stay up and talking all night long, I'm here yeol.

Keep this in your mind that there will always be a room for you in mine.

Since we're not as closed as we used to be, I know I'm nothing special but I hope you won't replace me, Yeol.