"Are you sure master Grimmjow? I can sleep on the floor." Yuki tells him.
She'd rather sleep on the floor than betray me? Yuki I don't deserve you.
"It's fine Yuki. I can control myself." Grimmjow says.
He better or I'm going to kill him.
"Ok let's go to bed." Yuki says, and they turn the lights off. I go to my room.
"Yuki I love you. I'm so sorry." I whisper into my dark room. It feels empty when she's gone. I start crying and eventually cry myself to sleep.
The next morning I go to Grimmjow's room and knock on the door. There's no answer. I try the knob and it's unlocked so I open it. I see Grimmjow with his arms wrapped around Yuki. She's smiling.
Yuki mumbles in her sleep. "Szayel I'm sorry."
Fuck Yuki why are you apologizing? I'M the bad guy.
I go to the bed and shake Grimmjow awake. "Shh don't wake Yuki up." I tell him. "Let's talk in the hallway." I say.
"What the fuck Szayel why are you just coming into the room like that?!" Grimmjow yells once we're in the hallway.
"I'm sorry I couldn't help myself. I knew Yuki was in there." I tell him.
"Oh yea. Speaking of, why are you mad at her?" Grimmjow asks.
"I'm not mad at her, she's mad at me." I say hanging my head.
"Why is she mad at you?" Grimmjow asks. "Is she mad you didn't tell her?" Grimmjow continues.
"No. She thinks I pretended to be in love." I explain.
"You think maybe she's just afraid you'll do what Renji did?" Grimmjow poses a good question.
"Yea I thought about that. I have no one to blame for it but myself. I should have just let her go. I don't deserve her." I say
"Did you hear our conversation yesterday?" Grimmjow wants to know.
"Yea some of it." I admit.
"Then you know she cares about you. I'll go bring get her and bring her to you, if she's still asleep I'll carry her to your room." Grimmjow says opening the door.
I see Yuki sitting on the bed with tears streaming down her face. "Szayel." She says.
I walk over to her. "Yes? Why are you crying?" I ask
"Can we talk about it in your room?" Yuki asks.
"Yes of course. Would you like me to carry you?" I ask Yuki.
"Yes please, just hold on a sec." Yuki says walking over to the blue haired Espada. "Thank you Grimmjow." She says hugging him.
"You're welcome Yuki." Grimmjow says. He's more shy now.
"Ok let's go." Yuki says and I pick her up. She buries her head in my chest. I enjoy the closeness.
"Are you ok?" I ask Yuki after placing her on the ground.
"Yes I am fine." Yuki says.
I open the door to our room. "Will you tell me why you were crying?" I ask.
"I was crying because you're so mean to yourself." Yuki admits. She looks up at me. I can see her sadness.
I tuck a loose strand of hair behind her ear. "It's the truth Yuki." I say.
"No it's not." She says.
"What are you implying?" I ask her.
There's a new look in her eyes now. "Think back Szayel. When we first met you knew where I was going to be and when I would be there right?" She asks.
"Well yes but-" I start to ask something and Yuki cuts off my question.
"Then you also knew that I was alone quite often." She continues. "Which means that, had you ever wanted to, you could have killed me whenever you chose, and you didn't. That implies two things. For starters that you didn't want to kill me, and that I kept your interest for a while. Now, let me ask you this, why?" Yuki asks
I look at her. "You're right. I never wanted to kill you. Why? I guess because when I saw you it made me happy. You're also right on the point that you kept my interest for a while before I brought you here." I tell her. "You reminded me of myself when I was alive, in a way. So quiet, so secluded, always reading, and so...alone." I whisper the last word. I try to keep the pain from showing on my face.
Yuki hugs me. "You're not alone anymore." She says.
I sigh. "I can't keep you here." I tell her.
"And why not?" Yuki says. Her voice has a hint of the tone she used when we met. I smile.
"Because," I say placing my hand on her chest and placing her hand over my chest. "Your heart still beats. We're from two different worlds, and mine will kill you." I tell her no longer trying to hide my feelings. A tear slips out.
Yuki kisses me. "Szayel please don't make me leave." She says.
I give her a sad smile. "I'm afraid I'm too selfish, and I've grown too fond of you for that." I tell her.
She grabs my hand. "I'm afraid." Yuki admits.
"Afraid of what?" I ask hugging her.
"That you'll get bored of me one day and leave." Yuki says. Her voice cracks.
"Don't be silly. You're the only good thing I have." I say kissing the top of her head.
"And you're the only good thing I have." She tells me.
I start breaking. I sob uncontrollably.
"What's wrong master Szayel?" Yuki asks getting concerned.
I look at her. "I just never thought I'd hear anyone say that." I say
"It's the truth master Szayel. I love you." Yuki tells me I tilt her chin up and we kiss. For that moment everything falls into place.
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