Becoming Me (ON HOLD)

Chapter 14

I woke up screaming. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. The first thing I thought about was to feel my body to make sure he hadn’t done anything to me. I looked down and there was nothing. No bruises, no pain, and no blood. Then why did it hurt so much when he was hitting me? 

I turned to face the door as soon as I heard dad and Rachel banging on the door. “Meghan…Meghan!” dad yelled. “Are you okay?”

“I’m fine, just a nightmare,” I replied knowing that it was a lie. This nightmare seemed to real. I didn’t want to go back to sleep. Fearing that I’d go back to the nightmare and find myself in that situation again. I felt everything.

“You sure?”

“Uh yeah,” I said.

“Okay, goodnight,” dad left and all I heard was fading footsteps. 

I couldn’t go back to sleep. I sat up and clutched my legs to my chest. I had the urge to rock back and forth. That man was about to… I couldn’t even think about what he was going to do to me. I took the place of that woman. 

I felt like calling someone, talking to someone. But who? My mom was in her own world. Dad wouldn’t understand and I didn’t even have Jen’s cell number. I was alone. More alone than I’ve ever felt before. Why was I like this? I felt like a little child begging for attention.

I turned on the lamp beside my bed and looked at my watch. It was only 1 in the morning. What was I going to do for seven hours? 

I got out of the bed, then grabbed my scattered clothes off the floor and stuffed them in my bag. My only escape was Jen. She was expecting me anyways. I was just going to be eight hours early. 

I took out fresh clothes from my bag and went into the bathroom. I took a long shower. Once I go out of the tub, I combed my hair, washed my face, then slipped on my cap. I didn’t care what I looked like. I work blue jeans and a plain hot pink shirt with my black Converse high-tops.

As I was leaving the house, I made extra sure that neither Dad nor Rachel heard me. I went downstairs without hassle. I got into my car then drove off. Good thing Dad put gas in it. 

I arrived at the club around 2:30 am. It was still booming with music. I show the bodyguard my ID and money then went in. I looked for Jen but she was nowhere to be found. I looked everywhere include the bathroom. Couple of times while trying to remain hidden Cheese. Who apparently was on to his next victim.

“Hey Wink,” I heard a familiar voice. It was Gates, he looked amazing, even under the blinding strobe lights. He was wearing a leather vest with a tight fitted, grey, long sleeve shirt underneath. Also he was wearing black skinny jeans with black boots. His hair looked awesome with its big swoop around the front. His eyes were mesmerizing as he looked at me.

“Hey,” I was finally able to say. 

“What are you doing here?” he asked. “Isn’t it past your bedtime?”

“No!” I said. “I’m eighteen; I don’t have a bedtime. I’m not a child. I’m and adult according to the law.”

“Oh!” he put his hand on his chest. “I’m sorry. I forgot that you were legal. Please forgive me. How ‘bout I buy you something to eat?”

“Sure,” I accepted. “You seen Jen? I thought she was working tonight…today.”

“Naw, I let her off early,” Gates replied. “She should be getting into her car right about now.”

“Crap!” I shouted. “Gotta go.” I left Gates then ran out the front door. I didn’t know what kind of car Jen drove so I just search the parking lot. Then I saw a pair of head lights. It had to be her.