I really don't know
I didn't really fell inlove that way
After all, only 3 steps away from me
I couldn't get a good view
But one amazing cozy restless
Friday night
Left me dreaming, smiling and
thinking about nothing but you.
I know I've been quite a little stalker
And it surprises me that I would do
such a thing
This desire that I want to know
more about you
Your fullname, age, address, group of friends,
your section, where you sit and where
to pass you by I have been thinking.
Ever since that Friday night
I have never felt the same about you
But I am sure while you are reading this
I am embedded in your mind right now
That I have left you wondering
about my feelings without
a clue.
In fact you've seen me
Do that little on my forehead
Where I tap it with my fingers is the code to
my confused silly heart
So next time do pay attention.
I am bordering on insanely obsessive
And you don't make me feel good
I get tense, nervous and sweaty when
I saw you much more when I'm near you
but don't mind it
I know you don't care at all
The fact that sometimes you are in my mind
is not as it should.
But hey, you're already a college student now
And I, just a measly 10th grader
Will be left behind in the midst of my OWN NIGHTMARE.
So you probably have figured out
who I am by now
But if you haven't, you're as NUMB as a statue
My confused deranged hell of a crush for you
Damn. I really don't know, but here I am
Happy when you sent me first
a message.
That was a month of February
When I made a simple poet
And it goes like this
"I should have told you oddly
But the dots are too many
Plotted by you and me
14th day of February and it was Valentines day
when you gave me that white chocolate
You smiled a little at me
After that, you turned and walked away from me
I was drawing my line
Thinking it's just in my mind
Emptiness was my outline
You've crossed another plane
I sigh correspondingly in vain and
stand hundreds of sleepless means
Since then, you're always on my hymn
I can't explain my statement
But I want to be your friend or as soon as closefriend
To you perhaps this means extremes
But to me this means theorems
I should interpolate this feelings
But I have other function to attend
But everytime I tried to attempt
It only made me inconsistent.
Hope this is my system
Will soon be found in dreams
Yes! A DREAM because I know I can't have you
And I always remain in vain."
