All the things I should have done before

Chapter two: letting go

I'm just so confused.

Finally I reply to him.

"Your going to help me?" I say.

My voice is weak and wobbly. It's sounds so hurt. But that makes sense because I am.

"And why wouldn't I ?"

He says his voice is angry but at the same time I love it .

"Because what I just did. I just-" I stop for a moment. What am I thinking? I am seriously asking him to go to heaven or hell to bring back a man from the dead who I might not be completely in love with? Oh my God. I'm finally hearing it, but I don't think he does because before I can finish he says. "You betrayed me. You betrayed our trust. You betrayed our friendship. You betrayed everything I ever stood for." He's starting to yell now. " YOU LET ME DOWN!"

"Then why are you helping me?" My voice is worse and I have this feeling in stomach like someone punched me. I don't like it. I don't like it at all and now I can feel more tears running down my face.

"Why?" He looks like I just asked a very stupid question. He walks over so he's closer to me but still leaning on the consul.

"Do you think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference."

I just look at him for a minute or too. And then I start to laugh a bit.
" Doctor. I just realized that I asked you to go bring a man back from the dead."

Once he starts laughing I know it's okay to laugh now.I'm laughing hysterically now.

"You did didn't you"