Taking Chances

I can't believe I'm doing this.. I can't even speak up in front of a classroom full of my fellow seniors let alone this. "Ellie, I've changed my mind. I can't do this. This is crazy! I feel like I'm about to pass out any moment now.."

"Would you relax? This is the perfect thing we need to give yourself more confidence. Besides, you're talented. I'm sure you'll get picked."

I lack loads of confidence. I can't believe Ellie would go as far as to spike my coke with tequila just so I would agree to audition to be the leading actress for the new hit movie everyone's talking about. It was supposed to be incredibly dramatic and sad but romantic. "Caroline, don't sweat it. Go up on the stage right now. Say your name. Read the script. Just pretend you're with me or by yourself locked up in you're room again."

"Alright, I'll go! If I don't get it you're buying me ice-cream." I didn't have to say anything else because we both knew that she was going to win this argument anyways. I felt the clamminess of my hands and my heart speed up as I waited for the announcer to call my number through the intercom. Right now I'm in a waiting room with what looks like a hundred other girls. I honestly feel that I don't stand a chance.

You see, all my life I was told to 'Shut the hell up' because I'm a 'mistake of an offspring,' by my parents. They obviously didn't plan to have me and held me responsible for the fact that they lost their youth taking care of me. My mom got knocked up when she was 17. My dad was 19. They are both gone from this world now though due to a car accident when I was 15.

I was forced to live with my aunt from my mothers side. I cried every night for 6 months. Though they mistreated me they were still my parents and I didn't want to let them go. When I turned 17 I moved out of my aunts and bought my own place. I mean my parents left me a fortune. Since they were both daughter and son of different CEO's from rival companies they were loaded. They were eventually shunned by their family because they had a child so soon.

Now I'm stuck here because of a ridiculous bet I made with my one and only best friend Ellie.

"Number 93 please step onto the stage. Number 93 please step onto the stage."

"Oh My Goodness, Caroline we are so close! Your 94 right?"

"Yup."

"Don't be nervous silly! I'm sure you'll do fantastic. Just be yourself and leave it for fate to decide."

"Lets just hope the odds are in my favor." I said with my fingers crossed.

Ten minutes later number 94 was called.

I walked up to the door that led to the stage I was to perform on. I could feel my palms sweat and legs quiver. I just hope no one will ask to shake my hand.

I took one deep breath before opening the door and walked straight to the middle of the stage. I took another quick breath before I looked up at the people who will decide if I suck at the thing I love doing the most. A woman, man, and another man who I didn't recognize we're sitting side by side in between the stage and back entrance.

"H-hello." Was all I could manage.

"Hello. My name is Molly Laursen. The person to my right is the producer for the movie you're auditioning for, Elliot. The person to his right is the leading actor for the movie you're auditioning for, Derek."

I nodded my head. The people sitting in front of me are so beautiful. Molly Laursen had the most beautiful black curly hair, sparkly blue eyes, and face clear of marks. Elliot had the brown semi-spiked hair with chocolate brown eyes and gorgeous cheek bones. Derek looked like a fallen angel. He had a purposefully messy hairstyle and his bright green eyes were so sexy contradicting his pitch black hair. I almost died just glancing at him. They all look so young.

"Nice to meet you all." I said.

"Likewise. Now there's a script next the mic stand will you pick it up and read the lines on page 15?" Molly said.

My heart felt like it was about to jump out of my chest as I shakily picked up the script from the ground and turned to page 15. I skimped over the lines analyzing it. It was a sad love scene as my character named Katie found out her love was unrequited. She was sitting on the bench at a park when she saw her love Lucas kissing another girl while whispering words of love in her ear.

I could tell this scene was a crucial and important part of the movie but for some odd reason I knew I could do it. I knew that I could make myself believe I was Katie who loved Lucas since she could remember. Yet my shyness got to me again and I was afraid of speaking due to the fear of messing up. I glanced up again and saw Derek smirk at me. As if he knew everything about me. As if he knew I couldn't handle this. Like I wasn't good enough. And that smirk infuriated me so much I wanted to punch it off his to die for face.

Then I knew right then that I had to perform. To be Katie and prove myself. To show that I am worth something. That I'm not useless.

So I sat down pretending that there was a bench and imagined the scenery around me to be different. And then it happened like always. I was Katie and I was siting on the bench humming to myself in the park. I was so happy I got to bump into Lucas in the halls at school today that I kept replaying the scene in my head of his big strong hands stopped me from falling. Then I looked up and saw him kissing this girl with his eyes full of love and lust staring into hers. And my heart sunk. Crumbled.

Sadness filled my soul as a single teardrop fell from my eye as I whispered with a soft smile on my face, "I love you." Then I got up slowly. So slow it was burning my calf muscles. I shook my head willing to wake myself up from the nightmare. "This is what you get Katie. It's your fault for being so pathetically shy. It's your fault for not trying. For not being attractive. It's your fault. Like always it's all... My fault." I sunk to my knees and silently let my tears overflow without bothering to wipe them away. My whole body was shaking as I knelt frozen like a statue staring at my love Lucas. And then suddenly I wasn't Katie but Caroline again. Staring at Derek like I would die for him. And I remembered where I was and why I was here.

I quickly stood from my knees and wiped my tears away. "Um, I'm so sorry. I get carried away sometimes." I apologized as my cheeks burned from embarrassment.

"That. Was. Mindblowing." Elliot said as he clapped slowly. I looked at their faces and saw Molly with her mouth wide opened and teary eyed. Elliot was smiling brightly at me, while Derek was blankly staring at me.

After a couple of seconds of silence Molly then said through the intercom, "Auditions are closed. We found our Katie."

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Authors Note:

Should I continue?