There it was. The razor blade. I couldn't do it. Not after last time. I'd cut too deep. I remember waking up in a hospital bed. Oh god, no. I promised myself, and everyone else I wouldn't. So I went back to bed, but I couldn't quite shake the feeling of heartbreak and desperation away.
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After I woke up, I took a good 15 mintue shower. I put on an AH-mazing pair of distressed skinnies, matched with an All Time Low T-shirt, and my black Converse. [& Even if it may seem like it, I'm not Emo or Scene or whatever you wanna call me. I used to be, but I think I've changed a bit. Im quite popular, thanks to my wonderful step-brother.]
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I called up Ella, my best buddy.
"Hey!"
"Hi Jenni."
"I almost had a relapse..Elly."
"AH! NO! Butttt, you DIDNT, right?"
"NOO! I thought about....how, uhm, disappointed everyone would be. I'd be uhm, overly disappointed in myself, Cuz of my reason was stupid."
"Jake?" I cringed. Ell, Pleassse don't say that name!
"Yeah, Ughh.!" That boy hade made my life a living hell! It had all started about four months ago...
"Hey there, gorgeous."
I was startled. "Who the fu-" I stopped. "Well, hey there, whoever you are." I smiled. Dammmmmnn, he was mighty sexy.
"i'm Jake..I'm in your chemistry class? Ring a bell?"
"Oh, yeahh. I just didn't think you"- I poked his chest for emphasis..Oooh, wow, Firm, and tone(;- "Would go for mee." It was true. This lovely boy, who belonged to the student council, had amazing piercing blue eyes, and dirty blonde- almost brunette- hair, was talking to me? Woahh.
"And why's that?" He chuckled, and carressed my cheek, making me blush. Barely, but I still blushed.
"Well, you're out of my leaugue, for starters." It was true.I was classified as a 'scene queen'- Yes I was pretty- I knew it. Not being cocky. Dirty blonde, hazel eyes, Nice boobs. :3
"How's that? I think you're perfect the way you are."
"Hellloo?"
"OhMyGoshhhh, sowwy babes! I was having a flashback.. I'll call ya back later?"
"Suree."
"Love ya lots."
"Diddo. Bye."
"Peace." I giggled.
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I went downstairs to make some breakfast for Eli & I. {Eli is my step brother. My dad had die 1 yrs ago, which really sucked for me cuz he was my bestfriendd. Mom had remarried about 6 months ago, to Elis dad, Terry.}
"HEY E-E-E-E-L-IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!" I yelled, considering he was still upstairs. A good two minutes later, he came down, wearing nothing but Stewie boxers.
"Hi Jen."
Time to tease him a bit. (: "Hey there, ya mind covering up a bit?"
"Oh I would, but I can tell you're enjoying thee view, so nahhh." He smirked.
"not my fault you're hot," I muttered. It was true. He was the quarterback, absolutely beautiful brown eyes, Cute curylish/ straightish hair. (:
"I know I am," He said, smirking even more.
"Fuck you."
"Gladly."
"Dick."
"yeah, I have one, wanna see it?"
"I'll pass."
"Your loss," He said shrugging.
Then he picked me up & put me in a bear hug.. I was laughing like an idiot the whole time(:
Soo, this is the first chapter..Hope it's good? Think ya could vote, comment, fan? It'd mean the world to me(: I'll Try to upload in like 2 or 3 days, possibly?:D
