My hatred for you is everlasting.
To me you're the monster hiding
underneath my bed,
creeping, waiting
to devour me.
I have no eyes when I see you
and I have no ears when you insult me,
The wounds are tugging in my heart
buried deep inside there
I allow myself to believe that you care
for me.
The truth was like razors
but I can hardly feel the pain anymore.
All my thoughts are of you,
I press you to the back of my mind but you still come breaking through,
all of my walls.
Hands around my throat as you pull me down
My heart is heavy and I'm all sweaty
tryna prove you wrong
but you told me that I could never prove you wrong
and you made me cry
and then you made my tears dry
then you cut into my soul
and I bleed, I bled
into your mouth
fueling your hunger to hurt me,
I fell into your web,
and you devoured me sweetly.
And you spit me out in every direction
Because of you I have this affliction
And so you beat me,
broke every bone in my body
crushed every rib in my chest
and I died in your arms.
You killed me,
the words dancing from your lips like lyrics
to the song in my heart.
You replayed it again and again till I just wanted to forget it.
You destroyed me competly,
abandoned my trust,
robbed me of my innocence
and looked the other way.
You looked away
after you'd robbed me of my innocence.
I screamed after you, and I cried out for help but no one came,
I was alone,
I was on my own, spitting, sputtering, choking on your name
The world had swallowed me up and spit me out
and I was gasping because I couldn't breathe.
I never could have imagined that anyone could be so mean.
They looked me in the eyes and told me to shutup,
they said that they didn't give a fuck.
Said that life is pain,
and we're supposed to get hurt.
But they can't possibly grasp my sadness
and I won't ever grasp theirs.
And still they told me to growup,
and take it.
Take the pain and hold it dear to my heart,
let the hatred consume me and do my part
to help destroy this world.
They only destroyed me though,
I began sowing rotten seeds that should never be sowed.
I ripped open every part of me
that was still breathing.
But I've learned, even young as I am,
that sometimes we have to take it,
and move past our pain.
It's true we may never again forgive,
but I can't subject myself to live
hating you.
I can forgive you, but I don't think I can ever believe you.
I'm so lost now that there's no way I can ever be saved
from this ocean of regret, and lost time,
I want to set the world ablaze
and scratch out the names of everyone who's ever existed.
I want to laugh at you when you cry,
and I want to dig holes in you
and write my name across your body,
imbed what I've done to you in my soul.
I want to die with a smile,
maybe live with one too.
I want to sing with the lonely
and belong
I want to exist in the shadows and never exist
I want to hide from the world and scream out
then eat my words, and pound the earth with my fist.
I want to prowl in the dark
like a jaguar in the jungle
and for once eat you up
and taste victory.
I want to plague you with bitterness
and then I will forget you
but I want you to remember me,
and I want you to remember what you did to me,
And I will stop you from believing
that you are forgiven
and then we'll be even.
ESTÀS LLEGINT
Memories of Passing Strangers ( The Rain)
PoesiaRandom poems about my life, my family, and my dreams. How life is in my eyes.