CielxSebastian~ I can't hold myself.

Untamed emotions

  Ciel awoke, Sebastian seen how unsettled he was and left him to himself.  Ciel lazily ate and thought abought all these dreams.  Never did he think of his butler this way but it was becoming hard on him.  Every time Sebastian walked around he would look at not so appropriate spots on his body and Sebastian knew, but never said a word.  Why would he embarrass his master to that extent?

Ciel's POV

  It was to bright.  But I actually got to rest today, it felt good, peaceful.   My food was oddly satisfying and I had no clue why I was so hungry.  I bit into my pastry dessert and kept thinking of Sebastian.  How in all my dreams he would touch me and play with my ears.  He would blow hot breath on them and bite them, nibble at my neck and suck.  They always left hickeys.  He would slide his hand down my pants and... My door made a noise.

  "Come in."  Sebastian walked in and poured tea for me.   I was so lost in thought i didn't realize my throat was dry.  "I saw you slept.  Did you have a good rest master?"  "Yes.  Thank you for asking."  I wasn't usually fond of saying thank you to him but I felt the urge to.  "It is my job to make sure you are in good health.  I will draw you a bath if you would like."  I was still dazed.  "I would like that."  He walked to the bathroom and went he turned of the water, I could hear the glove slide off his and at it was in his mouth.  He bent over to check the water and I could't help but stare for the hundredth time.  "It is perfect young master.  I shall leave you know."  We walked past one another and I could feel his and gently touch mine.  I could not help but blush.  The door closed fast and for a fast second, I smiled uncontrollably and my whole face was bright red.

Sebastian's POV

  I looked out the corner of my eye and Ciel was staring at me yet again.  Why was he always looking at me like this?  I sat up right and he looked away.  Like usual to.  When I was about to grab the cart to leave him to his bath, I had to see something.  I trace my hand lightly over his and he stopped for a fraction of a second.  Young master walked faster and looked down as he closed the door.  Was he embarrassed?  I leave but find all my jobs where done, he slept past two snacks and lunch.  I over worked instead of waking him to eat.  Now everything is clean and smells like Japanese cherry blossoms.  What will I do now?

  He would call em at any moment, but he did just get in the bath.  I stop my mind and for the first time in five years, I lay down. I lay on my back and look at the ceiling.  I didn't know what to do.  It was so uncomfortable.  I flip and toss, lay on one side for a minute then spin to the other.  I just keep thinking of my master.  Why he looks at me so sexually and why he has not been sleeping.  In a way, it did worry me.  But he is 16 and I know he can take care of himself in personal needs.

  The rooms are all so quiet.  The workers are gone for a vacation.  I refused to leave, I get all my out side work done when master is sleeping and I always am on call.  I slept three months ago and I don't have the urge to at all again... I bathed twice this morning, after I spilled tea on myself... How clumsy of me I think.  I can't find anything wrong!  Why am I so awake and eager!?

  Master called just before I went insane.  "I can't find any pants... Where are they?"  He had a towel covering his lower half and his chest was bare.  "I do not know master.  Would you like me to check the wash room?"  "Yes please."  I walk to my destination and think of why he is using "Please, thank you" and "No thank you."   It must be because he is getting older, that's all.

  I arrive to his room with pants.  I open the door but he is pulling on boxers and they where only mid-thigh when I entered.  He was fully showing and I didn't think he has grown that much since I use to change him.  "Sebastian!"  He didn't notice I saw his member, I looked at his eyes and handed him his pants.  "My apologies young lord."  He caught me off guard.  I almost gasped.  "It is my fault, I should have closed the door."  He fixed them to fit his hips and put the pants on the dresser.  Ciel sat on his bed and laid down.  "Is something wrong?"  He told me to sit and I was actually comfortable.  His arms where laid out to his sides and his legs where strait out.  He looked at the ceiling and his body was vulnerable. 

  "Iv'e been having crazy dreams, and there not nightmares.  I think they are just... not usually what I think of.  But lately I have, because I can't forget them."  "What do you mean?"  Master explained all these dreams to me, of how I am in them and how I do things with him.  And how he participates with it.  That explains so much.  "I don't know why iv'e been having them so don't ask.  I don't even know why I told you... But you are the closest person to me Sebastian.  I can trust you.  Heck, even if we weren't bound by contract I could still trust you."   "I think that is kind of you to say, I am glad you can trust me.  I do not have any ideas as to of why you would have these dreams young master, the only thing I can sum together is, you are getting older."  He turned his head to look at me.  "You are just like any other teen boy at the moment, it is normal... but uncomfortable at times, yes.  Just don't mind them and they will soon pass."  He looked back at the ceiling.  

 I felt helpless, I remembered when I had a lust like that.  I had the wil to ignore it, but my master is not as strong as I would love to say he is.

Ciel's POV

  Sebastian sat on my bed and I still didn't know why I was telling him all this.  "To be honest, I kind of like it.  It gives me something to do and to think about.  I just play these things out in my head and I get new ideas when I dream at night."  I felt uncomfortable but Sebastian was not smiling, nor frowning, but just listening to my problems and insane emotions running out my stupid mouth.  "I felt that way once.  I had a mate long ago and I could hardly help myself as the days went on.  I can relate to you for once,  my lord."  He then smiled and I felt happy.  I sat up to listen and he shared his story with me.  The way he treated this person, how he talked about them and the setting of so long ago, his voice was broken.  But oh, his words where so beautiful and I fell in love with how he talked to me.

~Chapter 2~