Let It Go (Part 1 of 3)

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The blue eyed boy looked in the mirror and didn't recognize what he had become. His hair was a mess, his eyes bloodshot and puffy. He had turned into a monster. A greedy monster that took someone for granted, someone that had loved him even when he didn't feel the same way and when he realized that the same feeling from that night on the roof all those months ago still remained, it was too late. It was too late because he could see the spark leave his green eyed love and it broke his heart.

So come on let it go
Just let it be
Why don't you be you
And I'll be me
Everything's that's broke
Leave it to the breeze
Why don't you be you
And I'll be me

The green eyed boy sat on the roof, stuck in the cold. All he really wanted to do was go and sit next to his boyfriend and hear him laugh and see that smile that made his heart flutter in the hopes that the feeling never started to fade.

He ran his fingers over the cement as a tear fell from his face. All he wanted was to relive that night. He just wanted that kiss again. He just wanted to feel love again. He wanted to feel the butterflies fly around his stomach when the blue eyed boy looked at him or when they made breakfast on a random Tuesday morning because he didn't think Tuesday's got enough appreciation. He missed the cute little blush on his cheeks whenever he got a compliment and the way his hair still looked good when it was messy or the way his voice sounded gravelly in the mornings when they would share quiet I love you's as soon as they woke up.

But he knew. He knew that those days would never come back. He knew that the love was gone and although he never wanted to admit it, there was no way of getting the blue eyed boy to love him again. And even if he did, he would never be able to feel the same. Not anymore.

Trying to fit your hand inside of mine
When we know it just don't belong
There's no force on earth
Could make me feel right, no

The blue eyed boy looked over at his ex as he brushed his brown hair out of his face. The green eyed boy continued packing his things, trying to get out as quickly as possible. Of course, the brunette tried to help. He knew there was no use in repairing things anymore. He had pushed his true love away until his perfect green eyed prince got tired of it. But he at least wanted one last kiss before he was out of his life forever.

"I think that's all," the green eyed boy said. He grabbed his hand and the blue eyed boy leaned in just like the night on the roof. But it felt different. His heart didn't start racing. He didn't feel happy, or sad, or anything. Nothing could every replace that moment, and nothing could make this right again.

Trying to push this problem up the hill
When it's just too heavy to hold
Think now's the time to let it slide

"Please don't go," the blue eyed boy whispered. There was only one reason to stay, but so many reasons to go. There were just so many problems, and at this point none of them could be fixed.
"I can fix things, I can make it better. I can prove how much I care. Please, we can make this work," he pleaded. The green eyed boy shook his head.

"I can't put up with this anymore. I can't deal with you and you never being able to tell me what's going on. I still love you. But I can't take this anymore. I'm sorry, this is just too much for me," he replied.

So come on let it go
Just let it be
Why don't you be you
And I'll be me
Everything's that's broke
Leave it to the breeze
Let the ashes fall
Forget about me

As the green eyed boy left with his things, the blue eyed boy ran to his room and found a box of pictures. Pictures of when they were in love. Pictures of when they were happy and free and didn't have a care in the world besides each other.

The blue eyed boy dumped out all of the pictures. He threw the frames at his wall and tore up the photos. He sobbed so hard he couldn't breathe. His hands were bloody and had broken glass stuck in them, but he didn't care. He took all of the remaining photos and threw them in the fire place. He cleaned up the glass pulled it out of his hands piece by piece. His life was pointless. He had no meaning. His Prince Charming was gone from his life forever and there was nothing he could do about it.

The blue eyed boy ran up to the roof and sat in the same spot they sat in together almost a year ago. He sobbed, unable to tell what he was doing. Unable to breathe. Unable to think. He ran to the edge of the building and stood there. There was nothing left. All he had was gone. Including himself.

Come on let it go

The green eyed boy ran to the hospital as soon as he had heard the news.

Just let it be

"We're very sorry sir, but he didn't make it."

Why don't you be you

The green eyed boy fell to his knees and sobbed. Why did he have to leave? Why didn't he stay with his blue eyed prince?

And I'll be me

The green eyed boy stared at his blue eyed prince. He was wearing a tux, his face completely lifeless. He grabbed his hands, scarred and calloused. He remembered holding his hand on that beautiful starry night. He remembered exactly how he felt the first time he had kissed him. He remembered to butterflies he felt when he looked at him with such love and adoration it could be in a Nicholas Sparks novel. And he could never get those moments back. The green eyed boy pressed a kiss to his forehead and walked away, his heart aching, knowing that he'll never be able to love again.

And I'll be me

"Goodbye"

END OF PART ONE