Make Me Understand

Chapter 1 • Memory

Raph's POV:

The spear went straight threw my eye and I was left alone, trying to pull it out as my brothers fought. They finally noticed when I screamed out in pain, still trying to pull it out. I don't think I've ever felt so much pain in my life...
"Raph!" Leo called out and immediately ran to me, ignoring all of the FootBot's around him, which was a big mistake.
With my one good eye I saw Leo get pushed to the ground by three of them, by copying all of our moves, they made a huge cut on Leo's shell. It was deep enough to make him scream and bleed.
"Leonardo!" I yelled and forcefully pulled the spear out of my eye. It took my eyeball with it.
Ignoring the blood gushing from my eye, I ran to him, throwing off all of the Bot's and destroying them with frustration.
He was just laying there, holding onto his wound and panting. I bent down and pulled out my first aid kit.
"Lift your head up," I told him. He lifted it but them yelled out in pain. He didn't want to move. I put my hand on the back of his head to keep him calm and then wrapped his shell with the bandages from the first aid kit. He winced and grabbed my arm once I finished.
"Y-your eye..." He mumbled.
"I don't care about me right now, Leo. We're gonna get you somewhere safe. I promise."
I yelled out to Donnie and Mikey. They had a few cuts and bruises but they were still strong enough to help me carry Leo. They destroyed the Bot's around them and then headed over to me to help me carry him.
We picked him up and ran once we saw more Bot's coming. Leo groaned every time we turned, slowed down or moved faster. It only made him hold his stomach harder.
"Shh," I whispered to him. "You're gonna be okay, Leo."
We made it to the Shellraiser and set him in, gently. I got up to go to the drivers seat but Leo grabbed ahold of my wrist. He begged me to stay with him so we decided that Mikey should drive. Worst mistake of my life.

Soon, we got back home and I was hugging Leo to me still, trying not to make him feel Mikey hit all the mailboxes and buildings as he road.
"Are you ok, now, Leo?" Donnie asked as the Shellraiser was put to a stop.
"Nng..." Leo mumbled with his eyes half open.
Donnie looked at me, "how about you, Raph?"
I just remembered my eye. How the fuck did I forget about the throbbing pain in my face?
"Help me get Leo up."
"That's not an answer thou-"
"I don't care," I tried to lift Leo on my own but he opened his eyes again and winced loudly. I sighed, "Donnie, just help me with him and then I'll help myself."
He didn't answer but he just nodded and grabbed Leo's legs. I picked him up by his shoulders and then lifted him up into my arms with the help of Donnie.
Leo curled into a ball in my arms to try to stop the pain. It didn't help at all.
Donnie followed behind me as I walked into the lair. Mikey flicked the lights on and ran straight to Leo's room.
"Raph..." Leo whispered as I followed Mikey.
"Yeah?" I looked at his ocean blue eyes and smiled to try to make him feel comfortable.
"Will this kill me...?" He mumbled and his eyes closed.
Donnie interrupted, "of course not! If we didn't even bother to take you home, than yes you would. But we're gonna take good care of you, Leo, until you're all better."
"Yeah, what Donnie said." I answered and placed him in his bed.
"Ow..." Leo mumbled again and clutched his stomach.
Donnie and Mikey left, so me and Leo were alone for a while.
"Please fix your eye, Raph..." Leo still mumbled. "I don't wanna see you until you get it fixed..."
"Luckily I brought my first aid kit with me. You never know what could happen these days." I sat on the edge of Leo's bed and placed the first aid kit next to me. I took out a cloth and cleaned my eye. I took a peek at the cloth and yep, there was blood.
I was bandaging around the side of my face when Leo said, "your poor, emerald green eye... I'll never see it again..."
I finished bandaging and looked at him. I didn't say a word.
"You only have one left. Don't waste that one, too..."
I blinked, "Leo?"
"Hmm...? What...?"
I leaned down over him, trying not to hurt his stomach anymore and kissed him on the cheek. "Don't give up, Leo."
When I leaned back, he was blushing like crazy and his eyes were fully awake.
"I'd stay in here and keep you company, but I gotta speak with Master Splinter about this. Maybe he can use his healing hands on you-"
"I already tried..." He answered.
"You did? When?"
"While we were in the Shellraiser... I was holding my stomach and was trying to speak the words... It didn't work..."
"Well, maybe Splinter can help. He'll know what to do." I got up and started to head out the door when he said, "I'm sick..."
"What?" I turned around.
"I've been sick for 4 days now... A fever... I... Tried not to tell you guys because I was worried this would happen..." He sighed, "I got it anyway..."
"Leo, we care about you..."
"I know. Please, leave now... I kinda wanna be alone right now..."
So I left to speak with Master Splinter about Leo's shell and his fever.
It never really went away.