Under the Commands of A Full Moon Run (Re Starting)

Chapter 2

That caught me by surprise. He was trying to be friends with me again? Why now? "What reason would you have for pulling me into your fucked up world?" I grit out. "I want my friend." Was his response. "I'm not your friend, and apparently I never was from the beginning." I tried him. Before he could continue, I turned and left, leaving him with his mouth open as he went to speak. Life is difficult and annoying, why did I have to be born? I ran a hand through my hair, pulling at the ends, causing slight pain to distract me momentarily. I suddenly felt exhausted. I was ready to sleep. I felt a hand grab my wrist and yank me backwards. "I wasn't done." Zather argued lightly. "I am." I countered at him. He spun me around quickly and pressed his mouth against mine. My wolf yipped happily for some reason. I however was stunned. There were a million sensations running through my body. It felt like electricity where he was grabbing me, I felt slight disgust because I wasn't gay. Yet, why did I want to pull him closer and deepen this kiss? My body felt like it was on fire, and then all too soon he pulled away from me. "I loved you so much and I didn't realize it until it was way too late. All I've wanted is you back in my life." He whispered as he leaned his head forward to touch mine. His eyes were closed and his hands had skimmed down my arms to lace his fingers within mine.

I was warring with myself. My wolf seemed to want this from him specifically, but I as a person was not sure I wanted this. I unlaced my fingers from his and lightly pushed him back. "Well maybe you waited too long Zather." I whispered to him. "Chris, maybe you shouldn't be so quick to write him off." Lexie said as she came up behind me. I snapped my head in her direction. "You know something I don't." I stated and watched her nod her head. "Who even are you? You're always around even when you're unwanted." Zather spat at Lexie. I shoved him back hard. It stunned him for a moment before he suddenly became angrier than he had been earlier. "Zather I'm not a threat." Lexie said calmly. " Give it a week and you'll understand. He doesn't yet, but he will." She said when he didn't respond. "Sorry, for um, being a dick." He apologized to her. She smiled softly at him. "I'm his butterfly." She told him. He looked back at me with calculating eyes before sadness and pain washed his features. "Chris I am sorry, for everything. I hope that you can forgive me some day. I'll be waiting for that day though and I wont just give up." He said quietly. He brought a hand up to my face and as much as I wanted to turn away from his touch my body seemed to act on it's own and kept me planted where I stood. He brushed a thumb lightly over my cheek before dropping his hand again. "I'll be around. Thank you for meeting with me tonight." He said, and then he headed off in the direction of his house.

I turned to Lexie once he disappeared from my sight. "What is going on?" I asked her. She gave a small sad smile. "I have to let you figure things out for yourself, you know the rules." She said softly. I sighed and ran a hand over my face. My cheek still tingled from his touch. I wet my lips out of habit and noticed I could taste him on my tongue. The taste of chocolate and whiskey, almost made me want more. I shook my head at the thought. "Let's go home I guess." I finally said to her after a while. She nodded and we headed back to my house. She snuck side glances at me form time to time as we walked, probably wondering what was going through my mind. "How did you feel when you kissed me?" She asked after walking in silence for some time. I thought about it for more than a few moments before I gave her an answer. "I didn't want you if that's what you're asking, but my wolf wasn't too happy about it. Almost like he knew you were the wrong person to kiss." I said. She nodded and we continued to walk in more silence afterwards before she asked me another question. "How did you feel when he kissed you?" Was the question she asked next. I thought about it deeply, going over it in my head. The difference between how I felt and how my wolf seemed to feel about it. They way a part of me wanted to deepen that kiss with him was something I had to figure out. I hadn't pushed him away when it happened either, and then he confesses to me? The timing was so wrong. It was all a bit too much.