she's Not afraid

I Couldn't Go Home

Sofia’s hand was gripped In Louis as they ran through the hospital doors. Sofia couldn’t even think straight; she was surprised she had gotten them safely there at all. She couldn’t remember the last time there had been a drive by or a hit, and she couldn’t stop herself from worrying about Eleanor, as Louis mumbled prayers and words next to her in the passenger seat. Sofia saw Ella rush towards them, but she wasn’t sure what was being said as Louis rushed off with, she was too busy counting heads. She saw Liam and Dani, and Emily, but Zayn, Harry, and Niall were nowhere to be seen.

“Oh thank God,” Emily sobbed, as she rushed into Sofia’s arms, who accepted the embrace.

“What happened?” Sofia croaked out, as she watched Louis talk to her brother.

“I don’t know, I don’t know,” Emily hissed, “We were meeting Daisy and Danny for food, Danielle didn’t want to cook. We were all just walking along the road, and all of a sudden there were gun shots… It all happened so fast; there were so many yells and screams. I was on the ground, I didn’t see anything…”

“Where is everyone?” Sofia hissed, “I thought only El got hit…” Emily opened her mouth, but didn’t have time to respond, because Zayn was walking towards them. He had blood on his clothes, and the sight made Sofia sick, because this whole thing was all too familiar.

It was only a few months ago, that she was rushing into the hospital doors with Louis as they followed Harry in. It was only months ago that Emily was sobbing on her, asking her what she was thinking and what she was going to do if something happened to Harry. It was just months ago that Zayn had Harry’s blood on him, because he was trying to stop him from bleeding out. So, as Zayn walked toward them, Sofia felt them overwhelming sense of anxiety pass through her, and she felt her heart pound. The desire to run the opposite way came over her, because she had already done this once. They had already all lived through this once, and she didn’t want to do it again.

“What is going on?” she croaked out, as Zayn approached them, she couldn’t help but stare at the blood.

“I think they’re taking El into surgery, Danny is back with Daisy – their giving her some meds to calm her down before they check her out I think. And I don’t know where they took Harry – the won’t tell me –“

“Harry was hit?” Sofia gasped, looking up at Zayn in horror. She felt the room spin, and her heart stop. This could not be happening again.

“I don’t know,” Zayn said, “Everything happened so fast, I don’t know who actually got hit, or who just got hurt trying to protect someone or something. I think Harry was the one who went to protect Eleanor. I was trying helping Danielle out, she hit her head pretty badly – that’s where the blood is from, and David was scared to death…”

“Oh my God,” Sofia gasped, as the room really did start to spin this time, “Not again, this can’t be happening again…” Her breath was starting to get short, and the room fuzzy as she tried to control the anxiety that was beating down on her.

“Sofia…” Zayn said quietly, trying to reach for her, “It’s o –“

“DON’T SAY IT’S OKAY,” Sofia screeched, as she grabbed her chest, trying to calm her heart down, “This isn’t okay!”

Sofia didn’t even know what she was doing, as she turned and ran in the opposite direction. She heard people call after her, but their voices were so far away in her head. They sounded like echoes almost. She didn’t know how her feet were carrying her, she felt like she was being suffocated. She couldn’t see anything, as she ran down the crowded hallways, just hoping to get away from everything that the waiting room had to hold. She couldn’t breathe, she couldn’t think, she couldn’t see. She was going to be sick, and she thought her heart might come out of her chest if she didn’t get it to stop pounding.