Not Young

Don't Be A Pussy And Man Up!

SEOK JIN'S P.O.V:

I was silently staring at our Math teacher while she's discussing our lesson for this day. I wasn't really listening. I'm not interested and I never was and never will. I don't like school. I hate studying. Yeah, I've always hated studying. Oh! Maybe except when I was in elementary school. I was such a goody-goody lil boy back then. I always study. I always do my school activities, homework, projects and all. I always get high scores(almost perfect score) during exams. But when I was in seventh grade, everything has changed. As in really! I started to hate school for some reasons. I always ditch class, or sleep during class. Or when I'm really not in good mood, I'll just stay in my bed as much as I want. Or I'll just go and meet my friends and have fun activities with them. But then, I met Suzy. And started to somehow develop some feelings for her. Or I'll just say that I really started to develop this strong feelings for her. And as much as I hate school, I have no choice but to attend to my classes, 'cause I definitely know that she'll not like it if her boyfriend's always ditching class, right? And besides, I always wanted to see her, and be with her, almost all the time. So I guess, I really have no choice.

So I was sitting here, cupping my chin with my left hand, while my elbow was resting on my desk. And other hand's holding my pen and busy tapping the book that's widely opened on my desk. I'm getting bored to the point that I just want to start running out of this oh so boring room. But when I heard the bell rang, it's like my ass was glued to my seat. My knees were like jellies and I can't bring myself to stand. Maybe because it's lunch break now. And that means, I'll be seeing Suzy somewhere in the school cafeteria. It's not that I'm avoiding her. I just don't know how I'm going to face her or what to say to her after what happened yesterday.

Hey! You're still my girlfriend right? You didn't break up with me so I guess we're still together. And oh! Just forget what happened yesterday.

Yeah! As if I'm gonna say that.

She really didn't break up with me. She didn't say anything. But honestly, I'm bothered about that. What if she wants some space? What if she's mad at me? What if she really wants to break up with me but she can't bring herself to do so? I'm so much aware that I did hurt her. But I'm hurt too. And I don't know anymore what to do. Do I have to apologize again? Do I have to beg her not to break up with me? Cause hell! My life will be miserable without her.

I almost fell out of my seat out of surprise when I felt someone placed his hand on my shoulder. I looked up just to see these three idiots standing at my right side. You can see the amusement in their faces. Oh! So they are my friends.

"Daydreaming huh?", Namjoon grinned at me while the other two were laughing. I just rolled my eyes at them and looked away.

"Hoy! Ano'ng nangyari sa'yo?", Hoseok punched me playfully on my shoulder.

"Ouch!", I made sure that irritation and annoyance were evident in my tone as I threw my death glare at him.

"Oh! It speaks!", he commented jokingly which earned laughter from the other two. And of course he's laughing too. I watched them while they're laughing their asses off, hoping that they'll notice that I'm pissed off here. I want to stuff their mouths with rocks right now. "Ang OA mo huh! Ang hina lang kaya nun!", he continued. "Bakit ba ang init ng ulo mo? Meron ka ngayon no?", he teased. And again, they started laughing.

He's right. What he said was right. I mean, hindi naman lahat. Nung sinabi nyang ang OA ko, that was true. Hindi naman kasi talaga masakit yun. That was nothing. But the fact na sinuntok nya ako, kahit parang wala lang yun, nainis na ako. Mainit nga ang ulo ko. Pero nung sinabi nya na meron ako, that was fvcking insane! I know na alam nyo kung ano'ng tinutukoy nya. Sinong lalaki ang magkakaroon?!