did you forget?/rucas

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Sooo I decided to edit this book so there is gonna be changes

Riley's pov

Is this how I am going to be living for the rest of my life?

I threw my books aside and plopped on my bed still thinking. sinking my face into my pillow I thought Am I not good enough? more and more thoughts came to my head as I began to cry. just why did that day have to happen?

*Flashback*- 4 years ago-

"Guys I'm gonna get something to drink, do you want anything?" I said smiling. " yeah can I get a lemonade?" Maya said " same for me" both Farkel and Lucas said "sure I'll be right back" " wait Riley I'll help you" Farkel said " okay! Thanks" I said in my cheerful mood

Me and Farkel went to the kitchen and got four glasses of lemonade heading back to my room I saw something I never thought I would see. I saw my best friend and the guy I feel in love with  kissing.i couldn't believe it. " h-hey Guys" I said trying to hold back my tears but one slipped away

They pulled away very fast once I said something " R-Riley hi" maya said stuttering

" hi Riley" Lucas said refusing to look me in the face " so you guys are a thing?" I said "Riley-" they said but I cut them off " it's okay I'm happy for you two" I said with the fakest smile ever

You would think that they wouldn't believe what is said But they did

Flashback over

My whole mood has changed since that day but no one ever cared. did they forget about me? Of course they did because I am no longer relevant in their lives. I'm just that sad girl everyone knows now

I sat up and picked up the pocket knife next to my bed. sighing I said to my self

"I'm worthless"

maya pov

A lot has happened in the last 4 years. I'm going out with the guy I've liked for years and my best friend is okay with it. Accept she has changed a lot but everyone changes right? So then my life is doing fine. Except there is one thing

It's my boyfriend Lucas. I want to tell him that I don't just like him but  I'm in love with him. You would think I would have already said that considering that we have been dating for four years but I haven't neither has he. Sometimes I feel like he no longer wants to be with me but I knew if that was the case he would have dumped me a while ago.

I hopped into the shower beginning to think about how unhappy I used to be and now that I am grateful for everything I have right now. But my old thoughts that I use to have began to trail back to my mind and a tear ran down my face

"I'll make sure I won't ever be like that again" i whispered to myself

lucas pov

It feels like everyday that our group is falling apart. I can also feel my self falling into a depression why is that? Shouldn't I be happy? What truly is happiness?

I have a girlfriend, Maya but I don't know how I feel about her anymore. I care deeply about her and I wouldn't ever want to hurt. But when it comes to Riley My heart just stops.

Ever since that day Riley saw me and maya I could tell things would be completely different. I knew that Riley wasn't happy but I didn't say anything at all lately she hasn't been herself at all. She use to be so happy and now I feel her drifting away from me. If I'm gonna be honest with my self I feel like she is someone I couldn't live without someone who I will always need, someone who I couldn't ever bare to loose .

I picked up my phone to see a message from maya

"Hi baby can we meet up later?" I really don't feel like seeing her right now I thought

" yeah sure" I texted back

I began to scroll through my contacts list while waiting for a response and I see

Riles <3

I haven't texted her in years

Where did I go wrong?

"Hey riles" I texted

So like I said in the beginning I'm changing the way I wrote this book I hope you guys enjoy xD I do plan on writing again hopefully. My writing is still very bad no matter how hard I try xD

Qotd~ what do you ship

Aotd~ rucas, zaya, and smarkel