Spiritually Blooming

Day 136 ~ One sided love

This song by Jordin Sparks (Was I The Only One) completely explains how I feel right now.

5 / 15 / 13

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(  ) = my thoughts

When you told me that I was a star in the sky

Baby, I believed every word

( Everything he said was probably what I wanted to hear. I couldn't help but believe it)

And you seemed so sincere, it was perfectly clearCause forever was all that I heard

( He told me he will love me forever. Was it true?)

And every little kiss from your tender lipsCouldn't have been a lie

( I've never had my first kiss yet, but he said he'd be the one to take it. Might be a lie)I fell heart over head without a safety net

I don't understand it's goodbye

( I fell to hard and fast so he took over my heart and left with it)

Was I the only one who fell in love?There never really was the two of us

( He never really loved me did he?)

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, only one in love?

( Maybe it was just me )

As I walk down the hall I see the place on the wallWhere the picture of us used to be

( I look back at our messages to see if it was true)

I fight back these tears 'cause I still feel you here

How could you walk out so easily?

( First time I EVER cried for a boy and he just left it all)

And I don't understand how I can feel this painAnd still be alive

( It hurts so much to think it was fake. How am I still here)

And all these broken dreams and all these memories

Are killing me inside

( Everything you promised me is left broken and it hurts)

Was I the only one who fell in love?There never really was the two of us

( He never really loved me did he?)

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, only one?

( Maybe it was just me )

Tell me what I'm supposed to do with all this love

Baby, it was supposed to be the two of us

( What do I do with the rest of my feelings for you now)

Help me 'cause I still don't want to believe

I was the only one, I was the only one

( I don't want to think that it was just me)

I was the only one who fell in loveThere never really was the two of us

(I was always the only one )

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

I was the only one, the only one

( I didn't try hard enough, did I?)

I was the only one who fell in loveThere never really was the two of us

( We were never both in love huh?)

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, the only one in love, oh

( I wasn't good enough. This one-sided love was true)

When you told me that I was a star in the skyBaby, I believed every word

( It's my fault for believing every lie you told)