Innocence

Chapter 8

“Ouch…” Kayla whines grabbing onto my hand more.

Now. I would never sabotage what Syanne and I have though. I don’t know about Syanne if she’ll sabotage our relationship or not. Sometimes I wonder… It really sounds bad that I do wonder a lot but you never know right?

“Here’s your baby Kayla…” Dr. Thomas says pointing at the monitor showing a small little tiny I don’t know what… it’s just so small…. And cute… and…. Cute… I look at Kayla smiling as her eyes get a little teary.

“Look what you made chick.” I say laughing a little.

She shakes her head slowly staring at the monitor and so do I.

I think I would want a kid one day. Two at the most… anymore than 3 nuh uh no thank you.

Kayla and I say goodbye to the doctor and she calls up her boyfriend. She talks to him about everything that went on. I hear her making a sexual comment and I stare at her in disgust. I shake my head and grab her phone from her as she drives off.

“Sorry, Kayla is driving she can’t talk. Bye!” I quickly hang up and hand her, her phone staring at her. “I’m sorry but I won’t let a pregnant lady wreck us.” I laugh a little and put my seatbelt on.

“Aubrey! I was on the phone!” Kayla yells at me.

“Well I’d rather not get in a wreck Kayla. If you want to talk then pull over and talk.” I say staring out the window agitated.

She isn’t thinking about how I feel when I was in the car crash with Diana. But of course no one really does anymore. If she wants to talk while driving she can do it when I’m not in her car…

“Kayla?”

“Yeah Aubrey?” Kayla’s attention turns to me then back at the road.

“Can you just drop me off at Syanne’s house? I’m already up so there’s no sense in going home and going to bed.” I say looking at her.

“Yeah sure. I don’t mind.” She says turning around and driving towards Syanne’s house.

I say goodbye to Kayla when I arrive at Syanne’s house. I walk up to her door in ragged pj pants and a long t-shirt. I knock on her door waiting for her or even someone come open it. Her dad said if the door was ever un-locked that I could come in because one of them might be home they just can’t hear since their doorbell is broken. I open the door slowly looking around.

“Hello?” I say as I lean against the door and looking around more. I walk inside shutting the door behind me and it becomes dark in the house. I turn the light on next to me.

“Syanne? Mr. Suthers?”

Well maybe Syanne is in her room. She hasn’t texted me today saying what she’s doing or anything like she usually does. I walk upstairs looking in rooms where she may be until I approach her room.

“Hey Syanne are you in here?” I say as I open her door slowly.

I let go of her door as it slowly opens and I see her making-out with her ex boyfriend Ryan.

I stare at her feeling every horrible emotion there is. My eyes fill with tears and I hit the door as hard as I can, breaking a hole into it and they jump up. I look back and forth at them in horror. I stare at my hand as it’s bloody from scratches on the wood then I look at Syanne.

“Aubrey….” Syanne says slowly looking upset.

“Don’t…..ever… talk to me again….” I start crying and I run away. I can hear her chasing after me and I feel her grab my arm at the top of the steps.

“Don’t touch me either!” I say crying hysterically.

I use my other hand to cover my mouth as I cry as hard as I ever have. She starts to wrap her arms around me and I push her away.

“No!” I back away from her. “I can’t…. I can’t…do…” as I try to finish my sentence I trip backwards on the stairs and I fall down them.

“Aubrey!” Syanne yells running down the stairs and I lay on the ground. I get up as she comes near me and I limp away from her. I get to her front door opening it and running away from her house. I look around even though I have no one to drive me home. I pull out my phone calling my mom yelling and crying at her to come and get me at Syanne’s house.

Syanne touches my shoulder as I hang up on my mom and I turn around staring at her.

“Why!” I scream at her and innocent elderly and children stare to our direction on the neighborhood.

Syanne lays her hand on my cheek crying staring in my eyes.

“I’m so sorry…” she runs her fingers through my hair.

“He kissed me first and I couldn’t help but to keep kissing him.”

I feel my stomach twisting and turning. I end up feeling dizzy.

“I never did…. Anything to you! I kept you safe! You went back to him even when he physically abused me!!!”

I stare at her and pull her hand away from my cheek.

“Don’t…. touch me….it’s over….. there’s no more us.”

I take a step back from her crying hard. “I…”

I shake my head staring at the ground as my eyes fill with blackness and I see random spots. I look at Syanne losing feeling and barely seeing her anymore.

“I….I… love…loved… you….” I say as my speech slows down and I fall to the ground. My body feels numb and I can barely see Syanne screaming but all her screaming is mumble to me.

All I’m wondering with whatever thought I still have left is…. “Is this what dying is like..?”

I turn my head to the side seeing my mom running to me on her cell phone. I begin to close my eyes with the thought of Syanne in my head and all of the memories. I think about everything that’s happened between us and I wonder why she would ruin that…. Why does love have to be like this….

Ahh, sorry it's been so long since I posted a chapter. I was just... taking a very long vacation lol... from wattpad. I kept getting writer's block. As you can tell just by reading this chapter. Thanks for fanning, commenting, and voting! Love and Peace -gives peace sign- lol