Some Things Change

STC Entry 3

In a world full of people

You can lose sight of it all

And the darkness inside you

Can make you feel so small

I tried to fight back those tears na nagsisimula nang mabuo dahil naiisip ko na naman kung paano ako tinatrato ng mga tao dito higit sa lahat pati ng pamilya ko I felt so small and worthless.

But I see your true colors

Shining through

I see your true colors

And that's why I love you

 “Mom galit ka ba sakin? Sa ginawa ko? Please answer me….*sob*…please…” I pleaded habang nakatingin sa langit with those tears flowing freely on my cheeks.

So don't be afraid to let them show

Your true colors

True colors are beautiful,

Like a rainbow

I stop singing

“Mom if you’re not mad at me kelan mo ba ako isasama diyan? Please I’m so tired.” I asked her ng nakatingin sa langit.

Honestly I don’t know what my mom looks like dahil tinatago lahat ng pictures ni Mama sa bahay dahil I don’t deserve to see it sabi sa’kin ni Papa. But I barely remember her touching me and telling me how she loves me but that was probably on my dreams.

I remember the times na umiiyak ako mag-isa sa sulok ng room ko because whenever I ask my dad where’s my mom he always tell me na she was gone forever and it was my fault.

I remember seeing my classmates with their mothers brushing their long silky hair and telling them how beautiful they were. How I wish someone would do that to me.

“Mom if you truly love me please take me with you!” I shouted

Out of nowhere biglang may umihip na hangin na napakalamig it send shivers down to my spine at nagtaasan lahat ng balahibo ko sa batok. Tapos parang may narinig ako nagsalita.

‘Soon’

“And I will wait.”

A smile was slowly forming on my lips dahil sa narinig ko maybe I will be finally happy someday.

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Sipping the last gulp on my coffee cup tumayo na ako sabay tinapon ko na ito sa basurahan.

With the clouds starting to bond themselves nagsimula nang dumilim yung langit kailangan ko na talaga sigurong umuwi ng bahay. The cold wind blew again on me causing me to shiver guess the coffee can only work for a little bit.

Naisip kong maghintay na lang ng dadaanan na tricycle or jeep on the litte house basta di ko alam ang tawag dun pero nakikita kong doon naghihintay yung mga taong gustong sumakay ng tricycle or jeep.

I sigh I was waiting for almost an hour but tough luck wala talaga akong masakyan or they just don't want me to ride their precious vehicles.

So I decided to stand up at mang ambush ng masasakyan. Just on my luck there was this bright blue tricycle heading right directly on my way.

*broom

It was getting closer kaya ginawa ko yung mga napapanood ko sa mga movies kinaway-kaway ko yung kamay ko. It was actually my first time to ride other transportation than of my father's so I was excited. Guess there is always room for everything.