My life

I like anime and manga and creepy pasta. My style is that of emo's and metal heads. I love rock metal and other types of music. People like to judge me because I like to wear skinny jeans and rock shirts but they don't know what I go through. I've tried to explain but no one will listen except my friends and they are all I've got not very many but they are there for me. I hate when people say your just a faggot so go die. Sometimes I wish I could. I have chronic depression and bipolar disorder and it sucks ass because I could be laughing one moment and the next I'm ready to kick someone's ass. My mom is so worried about me because I come home pissed off at the world and she can't even do anything about it. I don't cut but there are times I was just thinking that I should go and die maybe the world is better without me. I miss my baby sisters and my grandma and papa (grandpa). My life consists of being bullied and no one will do anything about it. The only thing that is keeping me alive is my friends and my mom and a girl I like. She is perfect just the way she is and I've told her that but she let's people who don't know her tell her she's worthless piece of shit and no one helps but me and I feel bad for her but she said that she wants to die and I die inside when a girl says that to me. I hate when myself and my friends get told to go kill ourselves and I get pissed off. Then the people who say that shit are like what are u gonna do about it. Then I go to do something about it and they back out like pussies. My friends try to keep me alive but idk they do it, it's not like anyone else cares. I have the biggest regret in my life is when I learned about my papa died I felt the world disappear and a piece of me was gone and I started getting depressed just thinking about him. That was 8 years ago and my grandma died and it felt another piece of me died. They meant the world 2 me and I hate how I lost my grandparents and sisters.