If my heart can speak

The Aftermath

When your fairy tale story turns out to be a beautiful nightmare

A longing to break free from your addiction

When you feel helpless from the weary thoughts in your head

And you're calling out for help to take you out from obsession

When all connections have been broken to pieces...

And there is one left to restore, to fight for

Your heart resisting the chance of breaking loose

Of rescuing yourself from numerous bruises

When you lost yourself to the sincerest plans

A lifeline in all your misfortunes in life

You threw yourself to disillusioned hopes, fallen desires

And you are burned before you can put out the fire

When there is nothing that you can endure more

As you have witnessed your very heart and soul

Crumble to pieces along with your claimed certainties

You fade away, caught up in animosity

When you built your world to be with someone else

Apart from your own, she is another identity...

So close to you, you hardly distinguish the real you

When you used to be so good being just you

When you have adapted to giving and taking so much...

You thought you had the world on your shoulders

You have her in the palm of your hands, you're so into it

And you tear your heart to its dramatic beat

When you cannot afford to see her go and leave the mayhem

As you laid everything for an unclaimed future with her

You laid hands on her and tried to keep her

As she suffocates and fights back to throw away forever

When you breathe but the air cuts your breath

You tell yourself you will be better by telling that little lie

How do you heal a sore that has reached your core?

Or go on wishing you can go back to a time before?

When you are retracing your pathways...

Yearning for a history ought to be deleted in your memory

What is left for you to give to another after her?

Love killed the dream you dream and you still want her...

When I tell myself that it's time to shine a light

For my own life... rise up no matter how wounded...

You are not meant to be defeated. You're not like that

But you are losing your heart and soul for her...

When it is no longer love but a payback for your loss...

A fear of losing all at once, a desperate call to struggle

Swim above waters and hold onto the only thing

That keeps you alive until now...

When wretched words were spoken, wounds were made...

And you can no longer hope on moving backwards...

You will miss every inch of her, your passion and dedication...

Unconditionally loving, sacrificing and letting it all go...

When you look at the mirror tonight, try to fake a smile...

You are still beautiful despite the pain....

You can never keep a heart beating for a long time...

Sometimes you just have to freeze it to resuscitate...

***I can feel you now... I can see so much suffering in your very eyes...

Let it go my angel... It is over and done... Stop hurting so much...

It is killing what you can still become after your greatest downfall...

Pick up yourself and take the challenge...

You are off to a transformation... A start of a new chapter in your life....

You are better being you than being another person...

Go back to winning back your life and do not falter...