anorexia took me over

Ana is my new best friend

she took over my life

im still so fat

but i have much to lose

ana will help me throught it

until im all bone

ana will be there

she will

until the day

die~

alyssa hugged the toilet bowl. "come on. one last purge. please."

she stuck her finger down her throat.

alyssa threw up everything she had in her.

her thoat burned.

ohwell she will be skinny.

*****alyssa pov*******

i look in the mirror.

i pokes my hip bones. too fat. my collar bones. too fat. my ribs. urghhhh why do o i have to be so fat and ugly.

i hate myself. kill me.

*knock knock* "who is it!?" i called.. "a sexy ass guyyyyy" jace said smirking.

jace is my boyfriend. the only one who helped me through tough times. "damn girl eat somthing" he said giggling. he knew how to make me feel special. always. he got on top of me and poked my hip bone. then my rib. then my boob. i bit my lip. jace kissed me while his hands roamed my body.

i slid up from under him.

"i cant" i said with a soft voice. "you cant what?" jace said consirned.

i pulled up my sleeve. my heart raced. jace gasped. "uh oh my..." jace stopped "i know." i cut him off.

my wrist.

i had cuts.

scars.

stiches.

"its..... its ok we will get through this together." jace said sincerly.

i picked up the razor. i was trembling. "stop" jace whispered. a tear rolled down his face.

"i love you" i whispered. i stuck the razor in me. it hurt like a bitch. i dont know why. i just did it. for the hell of it.

next thing i know.

everything i is black. "where am i?"