Introduction
Truth juice was just any drink
Shared with you or thrown down
The sink sometimes that I think
Over everything again and again
That's 'cause your truth is me
And I'm juiced out under misery
Of just thinking and just doing
When I'm only being happy
Chapter 1
Rage is our poison making
Everything seem so simple
To ruin or ask ransom over
So don't do anything like it's over
I hate myself for loving you, what a clue
I hate that you knew what I knew
I hate that you ever saw what I saw
I hate that you ever heard what I wanted to hear
Chapter 2
I hate myself for loving you more than I never
Expected, anticipated, tried to predict, and tried with
You're a fool for not knowing I'm your damned fool
I'd rather be literature than yours and your fool
Chapter 3
I loved being your whore
I loved being your hell
I love being your reason why
I love you calling out for only my help, so that's why
What a devil's cup I knew about
Yet no one wanted me around
Long enough to find out what I'm about
So never mind, I'm coming out
I'm coming out of focus
I'm coming out of just girlhood
I'm coming out of death sentences from hardships imposed
I'm coming out in full moons if you do
That's because you can't
See me coming like a train to wreck
Or a train-wreck, so choose until now
I'm just a writer, you fool
Outro
I'm just writing about what I need
To think over or have some closure over
I don't even know yet what I want about them
So I'm just a writer, you fool
Ending
I know you, and I know I'm breaking over you
I dare you to think of all the possibilities
In your bed, in your hell with or without me
In your imagination, in your misery, in your presence
I'm not your baby, I will repeat that if I have to right now
YOU ARE READING
I Hate Myself For Loving You, and I'm Poison That One Way (Part 9)
Non-FictionThis is me being the most in love I've ever been more than the last time.
