coffee after dark

I don't write anymore, I formally resigned.

so excuse me if this sounds like a ballad ,
It seems I have left, my rhythm behind.

I try to find the words,
erased over a hundred lines.
that's the difference between me and you,
I don't leave anything unsaid,
even in the middle of a fight.

I lost many things in your dissapearance,
I marked it 'things I'm leaving with you"
my heart, my soul, my home, my creativity, my language, and apparently my pride too.

I left so many things behind.
Yet you still remain,
I hate to sound cheesy or go as far as cliche.
In my mind you don't care,
but my heart pleads the fifth.

and twenty one isn't twenty one when nineteen year old me shows face, it's you who lure her out; you're engraved.

in her mind, in her purpose,
everything that she see's.
I tried to have her let you go,
but she holds on so intimately .

I painted you a thief,
who steals hearts for fun.
she brings up evidence of your words,
she constantly proves me wrong.

I introduced her to adulthood,
attractive pursuits to choose from,
she compares then declines,
she yearns, then she cries.

I gave her distractions ,
fiction should work;
the pages, the actors,
the conversations are you.
You are embedded in her.

I burnt the evidence,
deleted them all
how selfish it may seem;
but I needed her to move on.

it didn't work,
oh brother,
she's out again.!

it's like you summon her,
even from miles away.
I gave up, she still has so much to say.

before I take it too far,
I surrendered to her being heard,
I wanted to start off with a definition,
something light to catch the eye.

an unhealthy obsession is my conclusion.

so, a soulmate she decide.

I ponder the distance of soulmates.

when a soul dies, is it soul intuition ?

If a bond is broken would you feel the ache.

She says that you'll be here,
that you are inevitable.

I call bull.

its the nineteen theory after all.

I gave her this resort,
a stage to talk.
get it off her chest,
something for you to stalk.

but proceed with caution, as I withdraw

come on my love,

let's all have coffee after dark.