No Return.

Chapter 1

I stare blankly threw my kitchen window and watch the snow fall as I drink my coffee. I don't want to go to that hell hole but what else am I going to do. I just sit there silently till it is time for me to gather my stuff and head out for the day. I walk to my car, a 2012 Honda Accord, and scrape the ice and newly fallen snow off the windshield. I take a deep breath before I drive off wondering what my day will be like. Will it be horrible like most days? Or suddenly good? With my luck it will be the usual I have come to know as my new normal... As I pull up to the high school I can already feel them watching, waiting for me. I walk slowly to the doors and immediately they start to yell, "Why don't you just do it already?!  No one wants you here! No one will care! No one will ever care!" I stop for a brief moment soaking it in. A single tear runs down my face. I keep on thinking if they are right if I should do it. If anyone would care if I was gone. My thoughts keep screaming at me, "You know they are right this is your fate. You need to do this you must. Sure you can harm yourself but what will that really do? Nothing it will just make you look more pathetic Brittany!" I rush to the bathroom. The first stall I see I go to and shut the door, quietly. I unzip my bag and pull out my pouch, then carefully I inch my pants down my legs. I grab the razor and push down hard on my thigh. Blood seeps from my veins, and I feel a moment of relief. My leg is throbbing in pain but soon the pain just turn into numbness. I bandage my leg and sanitize my razor. I exit the bathroom and make my way threw the now quiet empty halls, to my first and worst class of the day... I will forever regret moving to this horrible little town, the two that causes me the most pain. The town I wish never existed. The town for which I am speaking of is Fairway. I just hope in the end of all of this I end up okay....