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EMMA

Five weeks ago I got fired from my waitress job. I mean I'm hella mad but I totally deserved it, I kept giving people the wrong dishes and spilling everything. So I've been searching for a new one. The only avaiable was a kids sports camp assistant. Wonderfull really I hate sports and what I hate even more are camps. Anyway I really had to take that job, because I'm living out of my savings.

The camp starts tomorrow and it's two weeks long. I have a meeting today with all the people that will be also assistanting or coaching.

I arrived into the building where the meeting was, I was one of the first people here. I sat next to dark haired girl who was around my age, maybe a bit youger. "Um hi I'm Emma," I said kinda hoping to make friends before I go into that horrible place. "Uhuh" she stared at me. Oh so that didn't go so well. Before I menage to even say anything else she just gets up and walks away. Awsome.

After 15 minutes of sitting on the most uncomfortable chair ever and regretting all of my life desicions someone walks in. It's a woman. A very beautiful woman. She has a confident look and short dark curly hair, hazel eyes and on her nose she has miu miu glasses. She's HOT holy shit. I uncomfortabely move on my chair. She trough the room and she glances at me. She stares for a minute and so do I. Then she clears her throat and starts talking "Hello everyone. I'm Jane,"

HOLY FUCKING SHIT. That's Jane. How couldn't I notice? She really does look like Jane. At this point I'm totally not paying attention to anything "Excuse me," I say as I literally run away to find the nearest toilet. Everyone were probabaly looking at me or maybe even saying something, but I really can't handle her in one room.

I'm freaking out. I sit on the toilet and try to breathe but I'm shaking and I feel tears running down my face. I could call someone. Someone. The problem is I have no one. I reach for my phone anyway, it's not in my pocket.I look for my purse but i menaged to leave that one on the stupid chair. Screw it. What could possibly be worse than this? Can I unsign from the camp? PLEASE.

I have shit to do so I just sit on the toilet trying to get my life together. Seeing Jane after 5 years is something i really didn't wanna do. I at least wasn't planning to. Altought it has been so long and I got over it still feels raw. It's painfull after the shit she did to me. We broke up durning the holidays . We had been fighting, because I didn't wanna tell the whole world that I'm lesbian, but she always assumed that it's her fault. It wasn't her fault at all, she just didn't understant that my family isn't so supportive and I wasn't ready. We were young and she had issues too, so it was hard to keep it secret and healthy. One night she came to my house unannoucet, durning my family dinner. She said she has to talk to me right now. I left the table my family giving me stange looks, because they knew I was hanging out with her, but they thought we were friends. She basically started screaming at me about how I'm embarresed about dating her and that I'm just using her and I kept telling her that I'm not ready, but she wasn't listening. Then she walked away and later that night I came out to my family. It felt okay, but it wasn't the way I wanted. She was supposed to do this with me. Holding my hand. Telling me she loves me. But no she just ran away. I tried calling her like a million times but she blocked me everywhere. It took me a long time to really get over her, I deserve someone better. Much better.

I have no clue how long have I been sitting on the toilet, but it has been sure a while, because I heard people walking by. I waited until it shut thinking they all left. I really tried to remove the horrible panda eyes I had from crying, butit was pretty hard with water and some pink gel soap (that will sure break me out) and those green one layer tissues. I looked horrifiing.

I slowly made my way into the room to grab my purse, I quickly realised I wasn't the only one here. I saw Jane sitting in the very corner of the room doing something on her phone. She looked up "Hey," she looked so calm and sort of kind. This is insane "I didn't know you were into sports." she continues. I realise I've been staring "Oh..um hi, yes I mean no," HELP ME. She laughs, it's more like nervous laugh "I see. You look different." What the hell does that even mean? I totally forgot the reason why I came here so I'm just akwardly standing here. "Uh yea so do you." God how embarresing is this gonna be. "Well I have to go now" She opens her mouth and then she closes it. I wonder what was she trynna say.

I walk like ten steps and then I hear her "Oh wait Emma" her saying my name feels even worse. "I think you forgot your purse." Shit shit shit why me? "Yes I know I-" I know what exactly. So I turn back go to the chair and grab the motherfucking purse. "Thank you," she"s scanning me with her hazel eyes.
"Hey um I have to give you those papers for the camp since you left mid the talk." "Oh sure, I..I'm sorry about that it's just" I take a breath "you." Shit I kinda crossed the line right now. "Listen. I know it's stupid and I'm sorry about everything you had to go trough when you were with me, but it's over. It has been 5 years, we both changed. I..I really didn't expect you here, but it happed okay?" she really hasn't changed at all. Just by looks - she's still the same bitch. "That's really all you say?" she looks at me confused "You fucking hurt me, made me come out to my homophobic family and then dissapeard! And now you just say sorry like nothing happend. You haven't changed at all, you're still a fucking manipulative bitch. Get your shit together Jane!" I'm screaming at her. She looks horrified , as she should tho I'm noit falling for her again. "I..I'm sorry really" she closes her eyes. I feel tears running down my face. Again. This is so messed up I have to leave.

I walk out of the building without a sigle word. I left her sitting alone. I don't care about her anymore. The last piece of emphaty I had for her left me. I sure overreacted but I needed to tell her. Maybe this wasn't the best timing . Whatever

so guys what do we think so faaaaaaaaaar??? I'm aware of this being very short chapter so please download this so you don't have adds after every short chapter [if u want to obvs]. I'm A3 to B1 level of english so there will be many mistakes and this whole story will be very embarresing too. I try to make the characters relatable, but I also feel like they are both very mean lol idk what I did to them. Please leave me feedback so I know what do yall think. Love yallll