From the Heart

My little Doll

In my past I have seen many issues, I have not always been the greatest of all individuals and I even still don't have the best opinion of myself. Before you met me I was a mess, struggling with thoughts that aren't my own, trust issues thicker than tar and I knew people that weren't healthy for me or to me. 

But ever since I have met you, I have grown more than I ever have before. I have gotten rid of all that were toxic, horrible or had some semblance of an unhealthy behaviour towards me. I have improved myself, not fully but the progress is still there as I have improved my social attention and tried to hold myself back from being rude or annoying to those that upset me. I have even swore less and I try my best to watch you carefully to learn from your actions so I can be like you. 

Because in my eyes you are an angel, one that flew down and picked me up when I was digging myself my own grave. I am not being dramatic when I say this as well, as I was not doing great. You are my idol.

You have filled me with so much love, respect, understanding and so much more, that I have learned to trust again. I have learned that out of billions of individuals in this world, you stand out as you truly are a pure soul, an individual so kind and caring that you would even go out of your way to be nice to those that try to upset you. 

You have even gave me hope of my past where I can be happy with being trans again, you have resurrected my happiness of my desire to be a woman and you have gave me something more powerful than hope. You have given me a future that I can be proud of and be happy with as I have finally found my soulmate.

I love everything about you and I care so deeply about you that I would honestly do anything for you if you asked. You deserve the world for how kind and lovely you are and I promise that I shall do my best to fulfil your dreams and to take you close to whatever desire you have because seeing you happy makes me more happy than I have ever felt before in my life.

You truly are one of a kind and that only makes you even more valuable and unique as you are special baby! I love you and everything about you screams perfection. Even if human life is meant to not be perfect, then you must not be human as you embody the traits of perfection so much.

I shall wait and I shall hold your soul close for the day where I can actually hold you in my arms, where we finally meet and I can kiss you. I want my life to be yours, I want to spend every minute and every second giving my soul to you as you are my true love. My soulmate meant to be. 

The cutest girl in the world, the prettiest of them all, the bravest to have ever walked the earth. I can keep talking as you are everything to me but know that when I get to see you, I don't believe I would be able to speak as my body would have taken over and hugged you, drenching your shoulder with tears, or the shock of it all would make me go blank as finally an angel is in front of me and I am unable to speak words from the presence of the divine.

My point is that I love you, I love you more than anything else in this world. I am yours truly and fully. No one in this world shall ever take me away from you, as my soul is already locked and chained willingly to you. I miss you everyday and every second I don't get to hear your heavenly voice in my ear, or the feeling of your presence beside me. You are my life and I am eternally yours as I desire you and I want to be your girlfriend for the rest of my life and even after that in every life as I shall find you across the world and across many lives.

You are my entire world and I am proud without shame to parade what I have, wherever I am to whoever so I can show off the miracle of a partner I have. You are that miracle, you are what gives me the future I look forward to having. You are the one for me and I shall always do my best to be the one for you. 

I am so proud of you, you work hard, you fight strong even more than I believe that you even give yourself credit for. With me you have learned a lot about yourself and I have grown more because of you so please, keep growing with me and we shall blossom into the beautiful flowers I know we can be. Two pretty girls in a world full of thorns, all we need is each other and I am happy to be with you always. I love you eternally and I love you more than words could ever describe.

I can't wait to see the future with you and I am happy and proud to die with you because you are my soulmate, my lover, my partner and my world. So I shall gladly die with you and be with you forever and ever. You are my one and only love as no one else shall take me away from you. I hope that everything that I have written out shows how much I love you. I want to spend my entire life with you, you are the one for me, you ease my thoughts and you ease my soul baby Dolly~