I've never really been good at sharing my emotions . . . Or talking in general. It doesn't really help when I'm constantly ignored, talked over, talked down to, or people trying to justify things the few times I have tried reaching out over something that bothered me. No one really knows how I actually feel and no one has ever tried to. It's easier to vent online. I think it's because I don't know these people, and that they've never met me, therefor they haven't had a chance to hurt me. I am trying to vent online . . . Im tired of being invisible.
That's why I started my YouTube channel actually. To be seen. Because I was tired of being ignored. Tired of being invisible. Tired of barely existing.
That's what I'm going to be doing here. I mean, I kinda vent in my poems, but it doesn't really go into detail on how I'm hurting. I don't even know the full answer to that. I've spent too long pretending everything is fine, but I can't trick myself anymore.
