Just The Girlfriend (Vergara Trilogy)

24

A/N: Prologue extended version! Don't skip it dahil may mga nadagdag lines and scenes. I love you guys! Thank you for reading this story. Probably 16 chapters left before the epilogue ((:

P.S. next chapter will be the first half of Jared's POV 💗
 

 
  
  
Chapter 24
  
  
  
Naramdaman mo ma bang mapagod sa isang tao, hindi dahil nawalan ka ng pagmamahal sakanya o dahil nawalan ka ng tiwala sakanya.

Napagod ka dahil sa tingin mo hindi na sapat ang lahat ng iyon para manatili sa tabi nya.

Cian Jared.

Ang taong nagparamdam saakin kung paano magmahal ng sobra, kung paano maging desperada huwag lang syang mawala saakin.

Noong una ko syang makilala, I couldn't believe someone like him actually noticed me. A nobody.

I thought he was just playing with me, like how a typical playboy does with anyone they find interesting.

I tried keeping my walls high but deep down, I was grateful, because for once, someone made an effort to get to know me, to get close to someone like me.

Noong mga panahong bago pa lang naging kami, wala akong ibang iniisip kung hindi ang gawin ang lahat para mapanatili sya.

I always do everything without questioning them. Takot ako na baka kapag magtanong ako, baka hindi nya na pala iyon gusto. Baka magalit sya.

I was always paranoid.

It wasn't entirely his fault, and I know that. It was mainly mine. It was my insecurities that made me like that.

I was new to everything. I was ignorant to how a relationship works.

The first time I saw his best friend was on our first day in the second semester, grade 12 kami noon at masaya akong pumasok sa paaralan to surprise him by saying yes.

But I was the one who was surprised.

He was with an unfamiliar girl. They came out of his car. He opened the door for her.

The more I look at her, the more my insecurities rise.

She has everything I don't have. Her looks, her dress, her designer's bag, her high heels, her demeanor... Her carefree smile.

And his full attention.

I've never been jealous of anyone... Not until I met her.

Buong araw sipang magkasama. At sa buong araw na iyon, ni minsan hindi ako tinapunan ng tingin ng lalaki. He acted as if I was never there beside him. He acted as if I never existed in his life, even if I tried taking his attention.

I was mocked. I was insulted. But I did not mind them, I experienced the worst. Their insults were nothing from the years of being no one at all.

Deep down, I was hurt. I was breaking.

Pero imbes na layuan sya, nakinig ako, nakinig ako sakanya, kahit ang totoo ay kulang ang mga salitang sinabi nya.

I was desperate to prove to myself that someone would accept me.

Our relationship started the wrong way. It started with my delusions to have someone I can call my person.

Yes I loved him and I still do, but I know I loved him the wrong way that's why after finding the courage to question everything, it made me realize things.

Yes, he loved me and he still does, yes he trusts me but not enough for him to tell me everything. When he fell in love with me, he was still guarded. He loved me the wrong way too, because he didn't trust me enough to tell me everything that even now, there are still things I need to know yet he still keeps them to himself.