I want to cut my wrist
I want to float into the mist
I want to watch the blood drip down
Till my smile turns into a frown
Maybe even drown
Drown in my tears
Drown in my fears
I know I need to live for my family and friends
But my soul is so heavy I'm starting to see trends
I want to live
But I want to thrive
I don't want to die
But I don't wanna lie
I need to be okay
I need to not let my brain play
Play tricks on me
I need my memories to let me be
I know I am loved
But I miss the ones above
I'm in my own personal hell
I feel like I have failed
I'm begging to be free
I'm begging the thoughts to let me be
I will stay clean
I will follow my dream
But for now I must avoid the blade
