Just The Girlfriend (Vergara Trilogy)

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Chapter 20
 
 

Mabagal ang mga lakad ko papalapit sa bahay. I know he's already there, I don't know what face he will show me pagkatapos ng ilang araw na hindi namin pagkikita.

Will he fake his smile? Will he let me see his vulnerable side? Will he cry to me the same way he cried in another woman's arms?

Or can she be considered that way? Kaibigan nya yun, sabi nga nya she's more like a sister. Maybe I should really let go of my insecurities.

Nang buksan ko ang pinto, sobrang tahimik. But what I saw almost broke my heart.

Nakahiga sya sa mahabang sofa, natutulog at pilit pinagkasya ang sarili. He looks so worn out as if he never had a wink of sleep for the past few days.

I swallowed the lump on my throat.

Lumapit ako sakanya at dahan-dahan syang ginising.

"Love?" He called. I faked a smile.

"Dapat sa kwarto kana natulog." Umiling sya, ngumiti habang kinukusot ang mata.

"It's fine, I wasn't planning to sleep anyway,"

He stood up giving me a sweet hug. Sinuksok nya ang mukha sa aking leeg.

"Kain tayo, painitin ko lang yung niluto ko, while you go and change."

Lumambot ang puso ko sa lambing ng boses nya at sa katotohanang nagawa nya pang magluto para saakin, kahit na, may problema syang kinakaharap.

I went to my room to get change while he went to the kitchen to re-heat the foods. Sumunod rin ako sakanya pagkatapos ko.

I tried helping him pero sinusuway nya lang ako. Sa huli, nakaupo lang ako sa hapag habang pinapanood syang ginagawa lahat.

He started preparing the foods on the table, sya na nga rin mismo ang naglagay sa plato ko.

He was all smile while doing that. Kahit mukha syang pagod, yung sinseridad at saya sa mga mata nya ay hindi na maitago habang ginagawa ang mga ito para saakin.

He's always been like this. He always pulls me to him every time we're together, his actions, his words, they always pull me back to his arms. Yet when he's out of sight, it's as if I was being pushed back to reality that there's always a gap between us.

That his love was not enough to make me feel at ease. I always end up overthinking.

"How was your exams?" He started,  napaisip ako.

"Okay lang naman siguro. May hindi ako satisfied na answers pero konti lang." He nodded.

"Ikaw? Wala ka namang na-missed no?" Kuryusong tanong ko, given their situation.

He shook his head, paused for a second. "No, It was... fine I guess." Alanganing sagot nya.

That's it. Mukhang hindi sya naka-focus sa exam ngayon, I know him. When he does well, he'll say it honestly with confidence, hinding-hindi sya sasagot ng ganyan.

He's proud when it comes to his academic excellence. He's always either a PL or a CL.

Kapag ganyan ang nangyayari, ibig sabihin, the problem theyre facing is really serious.

Pinilit kong kumain, ngunit mukhang nawalan na ako ng gana.

I put down the fork and spoon to look at him. Napatigil sya, his eyes went to mine.

"Hindi mo ba talaga kayang sabihin saakin kung anong problema ang kinakaharap nyo? I'm your girlfriend Jared. Hindi lang ako yung dapat lagi mong iniintindi, can't you just lean on me too?"