She waited nervously as she heard his phone ring and pressed her phone harder to her ear. She didn't know how this was gonna go but she was hoping he would just take what she was going to tell him calmly. At the third ring ,the call was picked up and her heart thudded when his voice came through. His voice usually made her heart skip for different reasons but today wasn't because of any of those positive reasons. She was actually scared.
'Nhanha.' Fuck. She closed her eyes tight and took a deep breath,she could already feel the tears coming. She cleared her throat.
'Hy'. He didn't seem to have picked up on her sullen mood.
'How are you baby ? I was just thinking about calling you. I miss you '. Her heart ached because she missed him too but she had to do this.
'I want to break up'. There. She had said it .There was silence on the other side after her words for a good seven seconds. When he finally responded his voice had changed ,now low and thundering.
'Pardon? '
'I said l want...', his irritated voice cut her off.
'I heard what you said. I was giving you a chance to take back your words but seeing as you didn't..', he sighed ,'Im coming over'.
She had known he would do this ,want to come over and talk and she had already decided she wasn't going to avoid him. The sooner they talked and understood each other the sooner they could go their separate ways.
It was twenty three minutes later that her phone made a notification sound of a message. She checked and it was him telling her that he was outside by the gate. Not bothering to put on anything warm she just left her room with only her phone on her.
His car was parked about two meters from the gate where he always parked. He opened his car and stepped out when he spotter her. She silently mourned in her heart because the man was fine . The black hoodie he had on accentuated his broad shoulders and he had every girl's weakness on, grey sweatpants. He let out a sigh when he took in her state of dress ,a sleeveless top and sleeping shorts that only covered her buttocks.He pulled off his hoodie as he walked over to her . When he stopped in front of her he helped her wear the hoodie that was big on her then opened the passenger door for her to get in the vehicle. After getting her seated he made his way round the car to get in at the driver's side. He shifted till he was facing her and watched her as she fiddled with her fingers , a nervous habit of hers.
'Vanessa . Look at me. ' She raised her head slowly and looked at him . ' Talk to me baby . What's going on? Did l do something? You can't break up with me over the phone nhanha. What's going on?',
She pondered on how to go about this then decided to just cut to the chase.
'I'm pregnant. ' Calvin' s eyes widened and a grin so wide it lit up his whole face appeared . He grabbed her hands and kissed them over and over again while making little happy laughs all the while . Her heart ached again when she noticed how visibly happy and excited he was . It was only when Calvin glanced at her that he noticed she wasn't as ecstatic as he was about this. He frowned.
'Nhanha ,this is the best news l have received in so long. Why would our baby make us separate hmmn? Did you think l was gonna deny the pregnancy? Baby ,you just made me the happiest man on earth. You know l have always wanted a family and having one with you? A dream come true . Fuck. I'm just so fucking happy. Are you worried about having a baby out of wedlock? We can get married traditionally as soon as next week then l give you time to organize the wedding of your dreams then l make you mine legally. Do you want that? ', Vanessa pulled back her hands and leaned on the seat with a heavy sigh..God . She didn't want to do this to him but she just couldn't do this right now. It was too soon. Sitting up straight,she faced him again and steeled her resolve.
' I'm going to abort ', the frown lines marring his forehead deepened and she continued before he could get a word in ', I was gonna do it without telling you but then you were just gonna find out about it sometime in the future and we would probably break up anyway. I'm not ready to have a child and l don't know if l ever will . I'm only nineteen and still in school. I can't afford the responsibility of a baby right now ,what more a marriage. I have plans and things l want to achieve before l think even think about marriage. My mother would kill me and my sister would probably skin me alive. Even if you agree to me having an abortion,you would never look at me the same. You would look at me and see a graveyard, feelings will fade and you would start looking at fresher girls. You want a family and l don't even like children. I just don't see any way in which we can work . Whichever way we could have taken would have led to an eventual breakup so l figured why not do it now?'. When she finished her rant he just continued to stare at her ,letting her words sink in. He was defeated. What was he to say to that?
'So what you are telling me is that you already went through every possible outcome of this relationship? Nhanha,how many times have l told you to stop overthinking everything all the time,hmmn?I understand that you have dreams and goals in life. I love you and l do want the child to have a chance in life. But baby, this is your body and your decision. I don't know why you think l would change or whatever you were spewing right now. Nobody knows tomorrow but l know l want you for the long run. I'm sorry if l have ever made you feel like l would pressure you into anything. We will have kids when you are ready okay? Just don't break up with me. I can't accept that sweetheart. ' She finally let out a sob and attacked him with a hug. He wrapped his arms around her and squeezed . She should learn to communicate better and she would. After all she was gonna be his wife someday.
The End
