In this era true love is missing.College students are enagaging in multiple relationships. How can someone got involved with multiple partners. Tinder is worst, there guys are talking with multiple girls only for hook up and one night stand, and do not want to go into a relationship. There were also some boys who go for sucessful girls, so they can ask for money from them, are they selling themselves, its disgusting.
I find bl more true and real love. They have to went through a lot of hardship just to be together with each other. The stories are painful, emotional, longing, love, friendship.
I also had bad experiance in my office and I am struggling till now because of that. I started having self doubt about my charater. But now I donot care what other think I know myself and the kind of person I am. I donot need validation from others. I trust myself completely❤️.
I had to went through a lot on emotional level not physically but it is tough. I donot know anyone like me but it is tough. I left my job because of these things. Now its been 2 years till then but my mind is still like that.
After spending more time with myself and cutting from other person , it is healing but I will have to talk to other person when I will get a job , I am planning to talk to a psycitrist about it. But I know that the things will change if I change from inside.
When other people start looking at you in a certain way you lost confidence, am I really this person. I donot know about other but I did same with me unknowingly. I treated myself as a dirty lerson and did a lot of things which I shouldnot have done. I became like their thought, mentally. But everyone has a consience a God hidden in their soul who direct to the right path. Becquse of them I want to protect myself wether other people like me or not. After death I want to meet with him like a better person who did good while living. I think I started feeling closer to God because of all those things
I feel like my parents are also not happy with me, I give them a really hard time , more to my mother. I became really different after living my job. My interpersonal realation with other person detoriated. So I choose to isolate myself and work on my self growth.
I am trying my best to improve myself.
This year I am hoping to get a job and return to my normal life. I will work hard for it.
