𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐍. | d. swing & k. hailey

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However this may find you, I hope it finds you on a day where you're stronger than I am right now.

Words don't come easy to me.
not when they have to be spoken face to face.
Not when my voice can be heard
but my heart can't.

so, i'm writing this to you.
To express what my voice refuses to make sense of.

I loved you.
both of you.
it was never my intention to hurt you.

Love is freedom and home.
passion and peace.

but my heart couldn't belong in one, so it loved both in two.

One of you gave me hope.
the other gave me peace.
one gave me safety
and the other gave me a release.

I don't know if this'll ever make sense to you
it barely makes sense to me.

but I want you to know:

you were never second.
my heart was just caught between the both of you.

If you're reading this, than that means
I chose
and in choosing
I lost you.

It doesn't mean you're any less
doesn't mean your love wasn't enough.
just that his love reached a part of me I couldn't run away from.

I hope one day, you'll understand. Whoever you are.

and that one day, we can reconcile as friends.
I love you, forever.

— sincerely, Kiandra

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DeVante,

You saw something in me I didn't even know had value.
Something most people overlooked.

Before you,
I never felt like my voice mattered.
Before you,
I never knew love could feel so warm.

You loved me like the world didn't exist, like every letter in the word 'love' whispered my name.

You gave me hope.
you gave tenderness.
you gave me a home.
a voice.

And for that, my heart will always carry a piece of you.

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K-Ci,

You taught me how to be free, how to breathe and still chase my dreams.

with you, I never felt like I had anything to prove.
with you, I always felt like I won
even when I lost.

You loved me like if I died today,
you'd search for me in the clouds tomorrow.

I never felt alone with you.

you gave me peace.
you gave me freedom,
wildness and safety
You gave me passion.

and for that, my heart will never pretend it didn't once belong to you

— love always, Ki.

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